My Boob and Some Resolutions

Today is the day we ring in the New Year.  You might be going to a big party tonight, or you might be enjoying a small get together.  Maybe you've given some thought to your resolutions for the New Year, or maybe you don't think about those until January 1st when you are nursing a hangover.  Maybe you don't bother with resolutions at all since no one seems to keep them past the month of January anyway?

Me?  Well, I'm off to have my boob biopsy this morning.  I can't say I'm looking forward to it at all, but I will be glad once it's over.  I am supposed to follow that up with a session with The Torturer in the late afternoon.  I'd say my chances of making that appointment are next to zero.  Because … really?  

I anticipate spending the evening with an ice pack on my boob.  Fun stuff.

Here's a picture I took last night at sunset in Laguna Beach:

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The colors were fantastic.  The water was almost as smooth as a lake.  The dark purple shadow along the horizon is Catalina Island.  I'm going to be visualizing that sunset while they dig into my boob today.  Maybe it will help?

I have completely convinced myself my boob biopsy will come back free and clear.  I've gone through too much over the last few years to even entertain the possibility that the results could be otherwise. 

I am, uncharacteristically, excited for the start of a new year.  For at least a month expectations have been running through my head for the year 2009.  Usually I'm more like, "Another year?  Meh … what's the big deal?"

This is the year, finally, for me to get my life back.  I feel optimistic about the next 12 months in a way I haven't felt in years.  My life has been on hold ever since Asshole ran the stop sign and sent my car, and my life, spinning out of control.  Now, at last, all the surgeries are behind me.  The lawsuit is behind me.  The worst of the teeth clenching pain is behind me.  This is my time, my year, to rebuild my life.

I know it won't be the same life.  I am, however, in a much better place than I've been for a long time.  This year, at some point, I will be discharged from regular PT visits.  PT has been like a full time job for years now.  My doctor has told me that sometime in the next year my progress will plateau.  At that point, I'll be as "recovered" as I'm going to get.  I might still need occasional work for pain relief, but there is now an end in sight to the daily stuff.  (Yay!!)

How much do you want to bet The Torturer is going to really miss me?

I'm looking around at the disorganization surrounding me.  There are so many areas of my life I've neglected because I've had to.  It isn't just my pantry, or my closet.  It will take time, and happen gradually, but I feel confident that one by one I will now tackle the projects which need attention in my life.

My resolution for 2009 is not to lose weight, to exercise more, to become more organized, or to have more fun.  No, but my resolution includes all those things.  My resolution for 2009 is simply to have a much better year.

And okay, I confess, I told a local newspaper reporter the other day, I also plan to make a point of getting more beach time in 2009.  (He said that's one of his resolutions too!) Stop laughing, yes, really, a reporter inquired. 

How about you?  What do you want to see happen in 2009?  (World peace, although an admirable goal, is not an acceptable answer, okay?)

60 Responses to “My Boob and Some Resolutions”

  1. Alan

    I am TOTALLY gonna remind you of this blog everytime you write anything discouraging! 🙂
    You WILL have a great New Year…especially with a new focus and inner strength that we all know you have!

  2. Alan

    I am TOTALLY gonna remind you of this blog everytime you write anything discouraging! 🙂
    You WILL have a great New Year…especially with a new focus and inner strength that we all know you have!

  3. Alan

    I am TOTALLY gonna remind you of this blog everytime you write anything discouraging! 🙂
    You WILL have a great New Year…especially with a new focus and inner strength that we all know you have!

  4. Donna in VA

    That is an absolutely beautiful picture to have in your mind as you’re getting your boob poked and prodded.
    And yes, I do believe The Torturer will miss you. Who else keeps him on his toes like you do?
    MY New Years goals? I really don’t know. I’m pretty happy. . . even though I’m pushing 50 (and dealing with all the fun stuff that brings), fighting the battle of the bulge (although the Wii Fit puts me in the Normal range – yay!), and lean more toward DISorganized than organized. I should probably work on any of those three, but who would I be foolin’? I’ve lied to myself for so many New Years that I don’t even believe me anymore.
    I hope you have a fantastic New Year!! I look forward to reading all about it.
    Happy New Year!

  5. Donna in VA

    That is an absolutely beautiful picture to have in your mind as you’re getting your boob poked and prodded.
    And yes, I do believe The Torturer will miss you. Who else keeps him on his toes like you do?
    MY New Years goals? I really don’t know. I’m pretty happy. . . even though I’m pushing 50 (and dealing with all the fun stuff that brings), fighting the battle of the bulge (although the Wii Fit puts me in the Normal range – yay!), and lean more toward DISorganized than organized. I should probably work on any of those three, but who would I be foolin’? I’ve lied to myself for so many New Years that I don’t even believe me anymore.
    I hope you have a fantastic New Year!! I look forward to reading all about it.
    Happy New Year!

  6. Donna in VA

    That is an absolutely beautiful picture to have in your mind as you’re getting your boob poked and prodded.
    And yes, I do believe The Torturer will miss you. Who else keeps him on his toes like you do?
    MY New Years goals? I really don’t know. I’m pretty happy. . . even though I’m pushing 50 (and dealing with all the fun stuff that brings), fighting the battle of the bulge (although the Wii Fit puts me in the Normal range – yay!), and lean more toward DISorganized than organized. I should probably work on any of those three, but who would I be foolin’? I’ve lied to myself for so many New Years that I don’t even believe me anymore.
    I hope you have a fantastic New Year!! I look forward to reading all about it.
    Happy New Year!

  7. EricaB

    Happy New Year to you!
    What do I want in 2009? A kid that goes to school full time…I cannot wait for that day.
    Right at this very moment I also want Monday to come. The day that children (including DH) go back to school and work respectively.
    But I would also like to become more organized, start to run (and continue running) and live life one day at a time.

  8. EricaB

    Happy New Year to you!
    What do I want in 2009? A kid that goes to school full time…I cannot wait for that day.
    Right at this very moment I also want Monday to come. The day that children (including DH) go back to school and work respectively.
    But I would also like to become more organized, start to run (and continue running) and live life one day at a time.

  9. EricaB

    Happy New Year to you!
    What do I want in 2009? A kid that goes to school full time…I cannot wait for that day.
    Right at this very moment I also want Monday to come. The day that children (including DH) go back to school and work respectively.
    But I would also like to become more organized, start to run (and continue running) and live life one day at a time.

  10. Jan

    I think that’s a MARVELOUS resolution! It’s not too terribly different from mine (it’s the subject of tomorrow’s post).
    I’m actually on pins and needles here a bit until you get the results of your biopsy back – I’ve been thinking about you a great deal over the last couple of weeks. I’m glad you’ve been able to keep from fretting over it – keep it up! I’m willing to fret and worry for you!
    Muah!

  11. Jan

    I think that’s a MARVELOUS resolution! It’s not too terribly different from mine (it’s the subject of tomorrow’s post).
    I’m actually on pins and needles here a bit until you get the results of your biopsy back – I’ve been thinking about you a great deal over the last couple of weeks. I’m glad you’ve been able to keep from fretting over it – keep it up! I’m willing to fret and worry for you!
    Muah!

  12. Jan

    I think that’s a MARVELOUS resolution! It’s not too terribly different from mine (it’s the subject of tomorrow’s post).
    I’m actually on pins and needles here a bit until you get the results of your biopsy back – I’ve been thinking about you a great deal over the last couple of weeks. I’m glad you’ve been able to keep from fretting over it – keep it up! I’m willing to fret and worry for you!
    Muah!

  13. Sarah

    Happy New Year and good luck today! I am sending normal clean boob thoughts into the Universe for you! : )

  14. Sarah

    Happy New Year and good luck today! I am sending normal clean boob thoughts into the Universe for you! : )

  15. Sarah

    Happy New Year and good luck today! I am sending normal clean boob thoughts into the Universe for you! : )

  16. Katie

    Sending good vibes to you and your boobs right now. hang in there lady!
    oooh I hope I see those sunsets when I’m in Huntington Beach next weekend.

  17. Katie

    Sending good vibes to you and your boobs right now. hang in there lady!
    oooh I hope I see those sunsets when I’m in Huntington Beach next weekend.

  18. Katie

    Sending good vibes to you and your boobs right now. hang in there lady!
    oooh I hope I see those sunsets when I’m in Huntington Beach next weekend.

  19. Linda

    Gorgous sunset! Awesome attitude!
    Resolutions? NOT to lose weight, MOVE more, EAT better. Piece of cake. Gaaaaa! Cake! CRAP! Now I want cake!

  20. Linda

    Gorgous sunset! Awesome attitude!
    Resolutions? NOT to lose weight, MOVE more, EAT better. Piece of cake. Gaaaaa! Cake! CRAP! Now I want cake!

  21. Linda

    Gorgous sunset! Awesome attitude!
    Resolutions? NOT to lose weight, MOVE more, EAT better. Piece of cake. Gaaaaa! Cake! CRAP! Now I want cake!

  22. kelly

    Good luck today. I’ve been thinking about you and will keep positive thoughts going until you hear the results. I think your resolution sounds perfect. It doesn’t demand perfection, but strives for improvement. I think I’ll adopt it for myself.

  23. kelly

    Good luck today. I’ve been thinking about you and will keep positive thoughts going until you hear the results. I think your resolution sounds perfect. It doesn’t demand perfection, but strives for improvement. I think I’ll adopt it for myself.

  24. kelly

    Good luck today. I’ve been thinking about you and will keep positive thoughts going until you hear the results. I think your resolution sounds perfect. It doesn’t demand perfection, but strives for improvement. I think I’ll adopt it for myself.

  25. amyz5

    sent a DM on twitter as well but wanted to let you know that I am sending all my good vibes to your boob which in another context would sound really f’d up.
    oh and lose the torturer this afternoon! REALLY, 24, you must be joking!

  26. amyz5

    sent a DM on twitter as well but wanted to let you know that I am sending all my good vibes to your boob which in another context would sound really f’d up.
    oh and lose the torturer this afternoon! REALLY, 24, you must be joking!

  27. amyz5

    sent a DM on twitter as well but wanted to let you know that I am sending all my good vibes to your boob which in another context would sound really f’d up.
    oh and lose the torturer this afternoon! REALLY, 24, you must be joking!

  28. phhhst

    I’ll be thinking of you all day. I posted a sunset picture today too, the similarities of the colors and calmness was uncanny.

  29. phhhst

    I’ll be thinking of you all day. I posted a sunset picture today too, the similarities of the colors and calmness was uncanny.

  30. phhhst

    I’ll be thinking of you all day. I posted a sunset picture today too, the similarities of the colors and calmness was uncanny.

  31. Daners

    I hope you have a great 2009! And I hope the biopsy today is pain free (at least as can be). Have a nice evening tonight.

  32. Daners

    I hope you have a great 2009! And I hope the biopsy today is pain free (at least as can be). Have a nice evening tonight.

  33. Daners

    I hope you have a great 2009! And I hope the biopsy today is pain free (at least as can be). Have a nice evening tonight.

  34. Lo

    girl i’m sending you good healthy vibes today. you’re gonna need em. also a dose of courage. wait- what was a i thinking? you’re one of the toughest broads i know. 😉
    the sunset is gorgeous. i so miss socal right now.
    and i agree with you. while there may be pety things i’m willing to change and do this next year, in reality, all i really flippin want is to be happier.
    and i’m finally taking steps toward building the kind of life that i want, instead of being a child and thinking that it will all just magically ‘happen.’ i’m not sleeping beauty. this is the year to wake up and make my life mine. ya know?

  35. Lo

    girl i’m sending you good healthy vibes today. you’re gonna need em. also a dose of courage. wait- what was a i thinking? you’re one of the toughest broads i know. 😉
    the sunset is gorgeous. i so miss socal right now.
    and i agree with you. while there may be pety things i’m willing to change and do this next year, in reality, all i really flippin want is to be happier.
    and i’m finally taking steps toward building the kind of life that i want, instead of being a child and thinking that it will all just magically ‘happen.’ i’m not sleeping beauty. this is the year to wake up and make my life mine. ya know?

  36. Lo

    girl i’m sending you good healthy vibes today. you’re gonna need em. also a dose of courage. wait- what was a i thinking? you’re one of the toughest broads i know. 😉
    the sunset is gorgeous. i so miss socal right now.
    and i agree with you. while there may be pety things i’m willing to change and do this next year, in reality, all i really flippin want is to be happier.
    and i’m finally taking steps toward building the kind of life that i want, instead of being a child and thinking that it will all just magically ‘happen.’ i’m not sleeping beauty. this is the year to wake up and make my life mine. ya know?

  37. Kristan

    I resolve to work my @$$ off on my writing in 2009. I hope to see results from that. 😉
    Happy new year! I too hope you have a better 2009 than years past.

  38. Kristan

    I resolve to work my @$$ off on my writing in 2009. I hope to see results from that. 😉
    Happy new year! I too hope you have a better 2009 than years past.

  39. Kristan

    I resolve to work my @$$ off on my writing in 2009. I hope to see results from that. 😉
    Happy new year! I too hope you have a better 2009 than years past.

  40. Wunderwoman

    Thanks for visiting my blog!!
    I hope everything went well for you today (((((HUGS))))
    Beautiful sunset, I soooo want to come enjoy the warmth too…

  41. Wunderwoman

    Thanks for visiting my blog!!
    I hope everything went well for you today (((((HUGS))))
    Beautiful sunset, I soooo want to come enjoy the warmth too…

  42. Wunderwoman

    Thanks for visiting my blog!!
    I hope everything went well for you today (((((HUGS))))
    Beautiful sunset, I soooo want to come enjoy the warmth too…

  43. Jason

    Right after you talked about your boob you said you took a picture…and I was SO sure it would be a photo of your boob.
    I sincerely hope 2009 is a better year for you!!! I hope it is a better year for me, too. 2008 was a toughie!
    Happy New Year, friend.

  44. Jason

    Right after you talked about your boob you said you took a picture…and I was SO sure it would be a photo of your boob.
    I sincerely hope 2009 is a better year for you!!! I hope it is a better year for me, too. 2008 was a toughie!
    Happy New Year, friend.

  45. Jason

    Right after you talked about your boob you said you took a picture…and I was SO sure it would be a photo of your boob.
    I sincerely hope 2009 is a better year for you!!! I hope it is a better year for me, too. 2008 was a toughie!
    Happy New Year, friend.

  46. Jan

    I just saw your post on Pioneer Woman and I am so happy that things turned out good.
    I was so worried for you.

  47. Jan

    I just saw your post on Pioneer Woman and I am so happy that things turned out good.
    I was so worried for you.

  48. Jan

    I just saw your post on Pioneer Woman and I am so happy that things turned out good.
    I was so worried for you.

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