When Life Gives You Lemons

At this point in my life I should have my PhD in Overcoming Obstacles.  I've not had an easy life, but then not many people do.  When life gets tough, I write.  I write, and I write, and then I write some more.  I always have.  It makes me feel better.  It allows me to think things through and digest whatever I need to deal with.

Lucky you, you get to read my drivel.

I received some bad news this week.  I'm still trying to process it.  I'm trying to digest it without regurgitating it.  I'm trying to come to terms with it without falling into the never, never, land of tears and frustration which all too frequently accompany bad news.  In fact, I've been quiet.  

Very, very, quiet.

If you know me at all, you know when I'm quiet, it means something is very wrong. It's so much more normal for me to throw caution to the wind and let my emotions hang out sloppily all over the place.  That is who I am.  I'm the person who lets all my emotions pour out all over you, the floor, and anything in my path.  

I'm not … quiet.

I don't want to be redundant, but I have a few new readers so I'm going to give a very quick, short recap for their benefit.  I was in a debilitating car accident about 32 months ago.  I lost the use of my right (dominant) arm as a result.  I went through 5 surgeries in a two year span.  The last few years of my life pretty much define the word HELL.  I set a personal goal to have the use of my arm back, and to be done with physical therapy, by the beginning of this summer (my 3 year anniversary of the car accident).  

For those of you who have been reading throughout this last year of my journey, you know it's been a difficult, frustrating, and excruciatingly painful path.

I've been quite motivated to accomplish my goal.

The Torturer has even complimented me on how hard I've been working.  He said he's proud of me for pushing myself through the pain.  He never says things like that to me. 

Maybe because I'm usually sobbing on his shirt?

Of course, I've known for quite awhile I'll never have full use of my arm back.  My hopes of a professional tennis career are over.  Oops, I never had hopes for a professional tennis career.  Wouldn't it be dramatic if I did?  I did like playing tennis though and I've known for quite some time I won't be playing ever again.  Golf is out too. I suck at golf so I find it easy to live with that one.  Let's face it, a lot of things are out.

I've learned to live with that knowledge.

It isn't as easy to live with the words spoken by my surgeon this week.  No, his words swirled around me and left me dizzy as I tried to comprehend every ounce of meaning behind them.  Words about scheduling another MRI, words about irrevocable nerve damage, words about my inability to regain function in my arm, and most devastating of all …

Ahhh … can I even bear to put it into writing?  His pronouncement that I have "at least another year and a half" of extensive physical therapy ahead of me.

At least one and a half more years.

<Quiet, Quiet, Quiet>
© Twenty Four At Heart

99 Responses to “When Life Gives You Lemons”

  1. Jan

    Oh, Jesus, Suzanne!
    You’ve got my number when the quiet ends and you need to talk.
    I love you, girl. I hope you know that.

  2. Jan

    Oh, Jesus, Suzanne!
    You’ve got my number when the quiet ends and you need to talk.
    I love you, girl. I hope you know that.

  3. Jan

    Oh, Jesus, Suzanne!
    You’ve got my number when the quiet ends and you need to talk.
    I love you, girl. I hope you know that.

  4. di

    Heavy heavy sigh for you happening on this side of the computer screen. Sometimes you just have to keep putting one foot ahead of the other and moving forward.
    Di
    The Blue Ridge Gal

  5. di

    Heavy heavy sigh for you happening on this side of the computer screen. Sometimes you just have to keep putting one foot ahead of the other and moving forward.
    Di
    The Blue Ridge Gal

  6. di

    Heavy heavy sigh for you happening on this side of the computer screen. Sometimes you just have to keep putting one foot ahead of the other and moving forward.
    Di
    The Blue Ridge Gal

  7. Frogdancer

    Speaking as one of your new readers…. that really sucks. I had no idea.
    I’m so sorry…. I hate any form of physical forced exercise so that is just my idea of hell on earth, whicjh I gather is something we both share.
    I have no magic words of comfort and uplifting support that will make the angels sing. I just wanted to dsay that I hear you and I hope the guy is pessimistic and it won’t take that long….

  8. Frogdancer

    Speaking as one of your new readers…. that really sucks. I had no idea.
    I’m so sorry…. I hate any form of physical forced exercise so that is just my idea of hell on earth, whicjh I gather is something we both share.
    I have no magic words of comfort and uplifting support that will make the angels sing. I just wanted to dsay that I hear you and I hope the guy is pessimistic and it won’t take that long….

  9. Frogdancer

    Speaking as one of your new readers…. that really sucks. I had no idea.
    I’m so sorry…. I hate any form of physical forced exercise so that is just my idea of hell on earth, whicjh I gather is something we both share.
    I have no magic words of comfort and uplifting support that will make the angels sing. I just wanted to dsay that I hear you and I hope the guy is pessimistic and it won’t take that long….

  10. Kate

    I am so sorry that your surgeon had to give you the bad news. It sucks to see the light at the end of the tunnel so close and then someone you turn a corner and find that it is really quite a ways off. Keep your chin up. You fought this far keep fighting. Sending lots of hugs to you.
    Kate

  11. Kate

    I am so sorry that your surgeon had to give you the bad news. It sucks to see the light at the end of the tunnel so close and then someone you turn a corner and find that it is really quite a ways off. Keep your chin up. You fought this far keep fighting. Sending lots of hugs to you.
    Kate

  12. Kate

    I am so sorry that your surgeon had to give you the bad news. It sucks to see the light at the end of the tunnel so close and then someone you turn a corner and find that it is really quite a ways off. Keep your chin up. You fought this far keep fighting. Sending lots of hugs to you.
    Kate

  13. Alan

    Sorry to hear that you have another 1.5 years to go on PT! That totally sucks. But you know that we will be here to listen to you as you go through the process! And if you need, there’s always a stiff drink at the bar! 🙂

  14. Alan

    Sorry to hear that you have another 1.5 years to go on PT! That totally sucks. But you know that we will be here to listen to you as you go through the process! And if you need, there’s always a stiff drink at the bar! 🙂

  15. Alan

    Sorry to hear that you have another 1.5 years to go on PT! That totally sucks. But you know that we will be here to listen to you as you go through the process! And if you need, there’s always a stiff drink at the bar! 🙂

  16. Erin

    omg…NOT what you want to hear. but…as you aptly titled this post “when life gives you lemons…” keep up the PT and the torture and hopefully the end result will be acceptable.
    sending positive thoughts through the e-waves to you today.

  17. Erin

    omg…NOT what you want to hear. but…as you aptly titled this post “when life gives you lemons…” keep up the PT and the torture and hopefully the end result will be acceptable.
    sending positive thoughts through the e-waves to you today.

  18. Erin

    omg…NOT what you want to hear. but…as you aptly titled this post “when life gives you lemons…” keep up the PT and the torture and hopefully the end result will be acceptable.
    sending positive thoughts through the e-waves to you today.

  19. Linda

    Damn it! This totally sucks! OK Deep breath. Like Di, The Blue Ridge Gal said; one foot infront of the other. And theres always and ear and a drink at my place too!

  20. Linda

    Damn it! This totally sucks! OK Deep breath. Like Di, The Blue Ridge Gal said; one foot infront of the other. And theres always and ear and a drink at my place too!

  21. Linda

    Damn it! This totally sucks! OK Deep breath. Like Di, The Blue Ridge Gal said; one foot infront of the other. And theres always and ear and a drink at my place too!

  22. Lori

    Well that sucks! I’m sorry to hear this and since you already know that I really do understand living with a body that can’t do things that it used to be able to do and brings such pain of epic porportions, I will just say I grieve with you over this news. I know you will keep on fighting because you are a resilient woman and you have come way too far to stop now. (((((HUGS)))))) and love my friend, Lori

  23. Lori

    Well that sucks! I’m sorry to hear this and since you already know that I really do understand living with a body that can’t do things that it used to be able to do and brings such pain of epic porportions, I will just say I grieve with you over this news. I know you will keep on fighting because you are a resilient woman and you have come way too far to stop now. (((((HUGS)))))) and love my friend, Lori

  24. Lori

    Well that sucks! I’m sorry to hear this and since you already know that I really do understand living with a body that can’t do things that it used to be able to do and brings such pain of epic porportions, I will just say I grieve with you over this news. I know you will keep on fighting because you are a resilient woman and you have come way too far to stop now. (((((HUGS)))))) and love my friend, Lori

  25. Margie

    Oh, 24, I’m so sorry. I just don’t know what to say except I’ll be praying for you. Maybe if you could just look at it as an opportunity for blog fodder? (I’m not trying to downplay the seriousness of your situation.)

  26. Margie

    Oh, 24, I’m so sorry. I just don’t know what to say except I’ll be praying for you. Maybe if you could just look at it as an opportunity for blog fodder? (I’m not trying to downplay the seriousness of your situation.)

  27. Margie

    Oh, 24, I’m so sorry. I just don’t know what to say except I’ll be praying for you. Maybe if you could just look at it as an opportunity for blog fodder? (I’m not trying to downplay the seriousness of your situation.)

  28. Kristan

    I’m sorry to hear that… Linda and Di are right, though: one foot in front of the other. If you can just *do* without *thinking* then time will go by faster than you can believe. I mean, I bet 32 months ago you couldn’t imagine making it 32 months later, right? But here you are, triumphant. And there you will be, triumphant.

  29. Kristan

    I’m sorry to hear that… Linda and Di are right, though: one foot in front of the other. If you can just *do* without *thinking* then time will go by faster than you can believe. I mean, I bet 32 months ago you couldn’t imagine making it 32 months later, right? But here you are, triumphant. And there you will be, triumphant.

  30. Kristan

    I’m sorry to hear that… Linda and Di are right, though: one foot in front of the other. If you can just *do* without *thinking* then time will go by faster than you can believe. I mean, I bet 32 months ago you couldn’t imagine making it 32 months later, right? But here you are, triumphant. And there you will be, triumphant.

  31. Lo

    oh girl i’m sorry for this let down. and it’s OKAY to suck it in, feel it, roll it around on your tongue, discover ways to accept and conquer. it’s okay to be quiet- sometimes we need that time to ask ourselves if this reality is one that you can swallow down or are going to die throwing it back up. i think you’ll swallow, chew, spit and come out just fine… it’s just going to take a little longer. and that sucks. it does. flat out, suckage, to the nth degree. i don’t know if i’d have your balls to keep going. i spent a few years, 3x/week, in high school, in PT, whittling away my prime years on a damn excercise ball and it got me nowhere. whereas you? you are progressing!! you’re seeing results. and even tho it’s going to take just a little more time… your arm will be THAT much better bc you stayed dedicated. don’t you hate it when you think something is going to happen, you work SO HARD at it, just to be shot down? chin up girl. write your heart out. i think i speak for all that we’re here for you when you need support.

  32. Lo

    oh girl i’m sorry for this let down. and it’s OKAY to suck it in, feel it, roll it around on your tongue, discover ways to accept and conquer. it’s okay to be quiet- sometimes we need that time to ask ourselves if this reality is one that you can swallow down or are going to die throwing it back up. i think you’ll swallow, chew, spit and come out just fine… it’s just going to take a little longer. and that sucks. it does. flat out, suckage, to the nth degree. i don’t know if i’d have your balls to keep going. i spent a few years, 3x/week, in high school, in PT, whittling away my prime years on a damn excercise ball and it got me nowhere. whereas you? you are progressing!! you’re seeing results. and even tho it’s going to take just a little more time… your arm will be THAT much better bc you stayed dedicated. don’t you hate it when you think something is going to happen, you work SO HARD at it, just to be shot down? chin up girl. write your heart out. i think i speak for all that we’re here for you when you need support.

  33. Lo

    oh girl i’m sorry for this let down. and it’s OKAY to suck it in, feel it, roll it around on your tongue, discover ways to accept and conquer. it’s okay to be quiet- sometimes we need that time to ask ourselves if this reality is one that you can swallow down or are going to die throwing it back up. i think you’ll swallow, chew, spit and come out just fine… it’s just going to take a little longer. and that sucks. it does. flat out, suckage, to the nth degree. i don’t know if i’d have your balls to keep going. i spent a few years, 3x/week, in high school, in PT, whittling away my prime years on a damn excercise ball and it got me nowhere. whereas you? you are progressing!! you’re seeing results. and even tho it’s going to take just a little more time… your arm will be THAT much better bc you stayed dedicated. don’t you hate it when you think something is going to happen, you work SO HARD at it, just to be shot down? chin up girl. write your heart out. i think i speak for all that we’re here for you when you need support.

  34. Kelly

    OMG. Heart breaking for you. I’ve read along, I know it’s been so, so hard for you. To have a carrot of hope dangled in front of you and then pulled away must be devastating. This sucks! All of it, even the words the doc said you aren’t telling us. Sucks! After the quiet I expect you’ll have tears. And after the tears you will find the inner strength you have so much of to take it one day at a time. One foot in front of another till one day you’re finally done. On the days you can’t find that inner strength, we will be here for you. You know that, don’t you?

  35. Kelly

    OMG. Heart breaking for you. I’ve read along, I know it’s been so, so hard for you. To have a carrot of hope dangled in front of you and then pulled away must be devastating. This sucks! All of it, even the words the doc said you aren’t telling us. Sucks! After the quiet I expect you’ll have tears. And after the tears you will find the inner strength you have so much of to take it one day at a time. One foot in front of another till one day you’re finally done. On the days you can’t find that inner strength, we will be here for you. You know that, don’t you?

  36. Kelly

    OMG. Heart breaking for you. I’ve read along, I know it’s been so, so hard for you. To have a carrot of hope dangled in front of you and then pulled away must be devastating. This sucks! All of it, even the words the doc said you aren’t telling us. Sucks! After the quiet I expect you’ll have tears. And after the tears you will find the inner strength you have so much of to take it one day at a time. One foot in front of another till one day you’re finally done. On the days you can’t find that inner strength, we will be here for you. You know that, don’t you?

  37. nuckingfutsmama

    That really sucks. I know how difficult it is to have to switch your thinking gears when you had your mind set on a certain goal. Hang in there as best you can & keep pouring your soul into your writing. You truly have a gift with words….

  38. nuckingfutsmama

    That really sucks. I know how difficult it is to have to switch your thinking gears when you had your mind set on a certain goal. Hang in there as best you can & keep pouring your soul into your writing. You truly have a gift with words….

  39. nuckingfutsmama

    That really sucks. I know how difficult it is to have to switch your thinking gears when you had your mind set on a certain goal. Hang in there as best you can & keep pouring your soul into your writing. You truly have a gift with words….

  40. Heather

    It’s hard to get news like that. But one of the great things about our bodies and our determination is that we can sometimes prove doctors wrong. Here’s hoping you can be one of those people.

  41. Heather

    It’s hard to get news like that. But one of the great things about our bodies and our determination is that we can sometimes prove doctors wrong. Here’s hoping you can be one of those people.

  42. Heather

    It’s hard to get news like that. But one of the great things about our bodies and our determination is that we can sometimes prove doctors wrong. Here’s hoping you can be one of those people.

  43. Liz C

    Oh god. I’m so sorry. You deserve to crawl into your hidey-hole for a while. I know I would.
    If you can try to not look ahead for awhile — just *be* — maybe in a few days/weeks after the news sinks in and stops feeling new, things won’t look so completely sucky.
    We’ll be here, no matter what.

  44. Liz C

    Oh god. I’m so sorry. You deserve to crawl into your hidey-hole for a while. I know I would.
    If you can try to not look ahead for awhile — just *be* — maybe in a few days/weeks after the news sinks in and stops feeling new, things won’t look so completely sucky.
    We’ll be here, no matter what.

  45. Liz C

    Oh god. I’m so sorry. You deserve to crawl into your hidey-hole for a while. I know I would.
    If you can try to not look ahead for awhile — just *be* — maybe in a few days/weeks after the news sinks in and stops feeling new, things won’t look so completely sucky.
    We’ll be here, no matter what.

  46. Debi

    Oh I’m so sorry. Just want to HUG you. Life sucks sometimes. You have so much strength. You make us laugh even when you have gone through so much. You CAN do this. You WILL get through it. It may not feel like it today. It may not feel like it every day but you CAN!
    Also – I saw your tweets about Louboutin being on your site today. F*ck him. If he’s going to make six thousand dollar shoes he should have thick enough skin to handle your saying they’re ugly. and they are!

  47. Debi

    Oh I’m so sorry. Just want to HUG you. Life sucks sometimes. You have so much strength. You make us laugh even when you have gone through so much. You CAN do this. You WILL get through it. It may not feel like it today. It may not feel like it every day but you CAN!
    Also – I saw your tweets about Louboutin being on your site today. F*ck him. If he’s going to make six thousand dollar shoes he should have thick enough skin to handle your saying they’re ugly. and they are!

  48. Debi

    Oh I’m so sorry. Just want to HUG you. Life sucks sometimes. You have so much strength. You make us laugh even when you have gone through so much. You CAN do this. You WILL get through it. It may not feel like it today. It may not feel like it every day but you CAN!
    Also – I saw your tweets about Louboutin being on your site today. F*ck him. If he’s going to make six thousand dollar shoes he should have thick enough skin to handle your saying they’re ugly. and they are!

  49. Sandra

    Well that just totally sucks. You worked really hard so I’m so sorry for this crappy news.

  50. Sandra

    Well that just totally sucks. You worked really hard so I’m so sorry for this crappy news.

  51. Sandra

    Well that just totally sucks. You worked really hard so I’m so sorry for this crappy news.

  52. Pseudo

    I was going to pass both the lemon award and the sister award to you, I love your blog that much. But you usually don’t like the blog award stuff.
    But know that you were the blog friend I was thinking of. Wish I could take you out today and try and cheer you up.

  53. Pseudo

    I was going to pass both the lemon award and the sister award to you, I love your blog that much. But you usually don’t like the blog award stuff.
    But know that you were the blog friend I was thinking of. Wish I could take you out today and try and cheer you up.

  54. Pseudo

    I was going to pass both the lemon award and the sister award to you, I love your blog that much. But you usually don’t like the blog award stuff.
    But know that you were the blog friend I was thinking of. Wish I could take you out today and try and cheer you up.

  55. Linda T.

    Suzanne- I am so sorry to hear this. I have really been rooting for you and feel like I have come to know you a bit though your blog. Yesterday at Jan’s Sushi Bar I posted that quote from Nietzsche, That which does not kill us makes us stronger.
    I hung onto that phrase many times in my life and it has helped me to continue on. It is not damned FAIR but life is like that. I guess when I get really down (and I do sometimes) I hang on because there is really no viable alternative. That said- my heart aches for you and I am sending well wishes your way. (((and hugs)))
    Linda T.

  56. Linda T.

    Suzanne- I am so sorry to hear this. I have really been rooting for you and feel like I have come to know you a bit though your blog. Yesterday at Jan’s Sushi Bar I posted that quote from Nietzsche, That which does not kill us makes us stronger.
    I hung onto that phrase many times in my life and it has helped me to continue on. It is not damned FAIR but life is like that. I guess when I get really down (and I do sometimes) I hang on because there is really no viable alternative. That said- my heart aches for you and I am sending well wishes your way. (((and hugs)))
    Linda T.

  57. Linda T.

    Suzanne- I am so sorry to hear this. I have really been rooting for you and feel like I have come to know you a bit though your blog. Yesterday at Jan’s Sushi Bar I posted that quote from Nietzsche, That which does not kill us makes us stronger.
    I hung onto that phrase many times in my life and it has helped me to continue on. It is not damned FAIR but life is like that. I guess when I get really down (and I do sometimes) I hang on because there is really no viable alternative. That said- my heart aches for you and I am sending well wishes your way. (((and hugs)))
    Linda T.

  58. shaunna

    well, as so many have already pointed out that totally sucks. stay strong and be pissed… you’ll be surprised by how far it’ll still take you. (and, by the way, i empathize completely.)

  59. shaunna

    well, as so many have already pointed out that totally sucks. stay strong and be pissed… you’ll be surprised by how far it’ll still take you. (and, by the way, i empathize completely.)

  60. shaunna

    well, as so many have already pointed out that totally sucks. stay strong and be pissed… you’ll be surprised by how far it’ll still take you. (and, by the way, i empathize completely.)

  61. sometimessophia

    Grim news. So sorry. It’s a miracle you aren’t banging your head against the wall (but maybe you are…) Just know that you have a lot of love and support in us, your bloggy friends. Be strong and have faith that the benefits of PT will be worth the pain.

  62. sometimessophia

    Grim news. So sorry. It’s a miracle you aren’t banging your head against the wall (but maybe you are…) Just know that you have a lot of love and support in us, your bloggy friends. Be strong and have faith that the benefits of PT will be worth the pain.

  63. sometimessophia

    Grim news. So sorry. It’s a miracle you aren’t banging your head against the wall (but maybe you are…) Just know that you have a lot of love and support in us, your bloggy friends. Be strong and have faith that the benefits of PT will be worth the pain.

  64. mama llama

    You are a woman of incredible spirit, power and, yes, grace.
    You are strong. You will survive.
    You have no other choice.
    Be well, 24.

  65. mama llama

    You are a woman of incredible spirit, power and, yes, grace.
    You are strong. You will survive.
    You have no other choice.
    Be well, 24.

  66. mama llama

    You are a woman of incredible spirit, power and, yes, grace.
    You are strong. You will survive.
    You have no other choice.
    Be well, 24.

  67. CourtneyRyan

    Oh Suzanne…First I clicked through to see if it was an early April Fools joke and you were going to tell us that you had been cleared of PT or given an end date…
    My heart is breaking for you at this news, but I know you will find a way through it. (Most likely at the expense of Short Shorts and the Torturer – but it’s blog fodder at the very least – not that that helps)…I’ll stop now because I don’t know what else to say other than that I’m sending you mental hugs

  68. CourtneyRyan

    Oh Suzanne…First I clicked through to see if it was an early April Fools joke and you were going to tell us that you had been cleared of PT or given an end date…
    My heart is breaking for you at this news, but I know you will find a way through it. (Most likely at the expense of Short Shorts and the Torturer – but it’s blog fodder at the very least – not that that helps)…I’ll stop now because I don’t know what else to say other than that I’m sending you mental hugs

  69. CourtneyRyan

    Oh Suzanne…First I clicked through to see if it was an early April Fools joke and you were going to tell us that you had been cleared of PT or given an end date…
    My heart is breaking for you at this news, but I know you will find a way through it. (Most likely at the expense of Short Shorts and the Torturer – but it’s blog fodder at the very least – not that that helps)…I’ll stop now because I don’t know what else to say other than that I’m sending you mental hugs

  70. Mama Dawg

    Oh, shit.
    But you know what?
    You’ll do it. You’ll get through it.
    Cause that’s the kind of woman you are.

  71. Mama Dawg

    Oh, shit.
    But you know what?
    You’ll do it. You’ll get through it.
    Cause that’s the kind of woman you are.

  72. Mama Dawg

    Oh, shit.
    But you know what?
    You’ll do it. You’ll get through it.
    Cause that’s the kind of woman you are.

  73. jennster

    i thought you were going to say that you were NEVER going to get your arm back. so when i read one and a half more years, i was happy for you. i know, i’m a fucking bitch.
    but it’s better than NEVER, right? i know it’s got to be so fucking frustrating and so hard and how do you suffer through it and keep doing it- but i know you will. cause you’re awesome and fuck.. cause YOU WILL WIN. not your arm. 🙂

  74. jennster

    i thought you were going to say that you were NEVER going to get your arm back. so when i read one and a half more years, i was happy for you. i know, i’m a fucking bitch.
    but it’s better than NEVER, right? i know it’s got to be so fucking frustrating and so hard and how do you suffer through it and keep doing it- but i know you will. cause you’re awesome and fuck.. cause YOU WILL WIN. not your arm. 🙂

  75. jennster

    i thought you were going to say that you were NEVER going to get your arm back. so when i read one and a half more years, i was happy for you. i know, i’m a fucking bitch.
    but it’s better than NEVER, right? i know it’s got to be so fucking frustrating and so hard and how do you suffer through it and keep doing it- but i know you will. cause you’re awesome and fuck.. cause YOU WILL WIN. not your arm. 🙂

  76. sherendipity

    The news wasn’t what you had hoped for, by a long shot, but you can do this. You’ve come a long, long way and you can ride this out, too.
    We all have faith in you, and are here for you.
    Also, think of how many more conversations you can have with that creepy Dr. Frankenstein lady!!
    <3

  77. sherendipity

    The news wasn’t what you had hoped for, by a long shot, but you can do this. You’ve come a long, long way and you can ride this out, too.
    We all have faith in you, and are here for you.
    Also, think of how many more conversations you can have with that creepy Dr. Frankenstein lady!!
    <3

  78. sherendipity

    The news wasn’t what you had hoped for, by a long shot, but you can do this. You’ve come a long, long way and you can ride this out, too.
    We all have faith in you, and are here for you.
    Also, think of how many more conversations you can have with that creepy Dr. Frankenstein lady!!
    <3

  79. Christine

    PT sucks, that’s for sure. But from what I’ve read on your blog, you seem like a strong-willed, very determined person…I’m betting you prove the doctor wrong and get better before his timeline. Other than that, I don’t know what to say besides what’s already been said and send more hugs (And margaritas. Lots of margaritas.)
    By the way, I saw your tweet about Louboutin or however you spell his name. I don’t think it matters if he sees someone say his shoes are ugly. (Which lord have mercy they’re more than ugly.) I sometimes think designers make crap like that just to see how crazy people will go over them because they KNOW it’s ugly. Unfortunately for us poor souls that have to look at it all, people buy the stuff simply because of the name that’s on the label.

  80. Christine

    PT sucks, that’s for sure. But from what I’ve read on your blog, you seem like a strong-willed, very determined person…I’m betting you prove the doctor wrong and get better before his timeline. Other than that, I don’t know what to say besides what’s already been said and send more hugs (And margaritas. Lots of margaritas.)
    By the way, I saw your tweet about Louboutin or however you spell his name. I don’t think it matters if he sees someone say his shoes are ugly. (Which lord have mercy they’re more than ugly.) I sometimes think designers make crap like that just to see how crazy people will go over them because they KNOW it’s ugly. Unfortunately for us poor souls that have to look at it all, people buy the stuff simply because of the name that’s on the label.

  81. Christine

    PT sucks, that’s for sure. But from what I’ve read on your blog, you seem like a strong-willed, very determined person…I’m betting you prove the doctor wrong and get better before his timeline. Other than that, I don’t know what to say besides what’s already been said and send more hugs (And margaritas. Lots of margaritas.)
    By the way, I saw your tweet about Louboutin or however you spell his name. I don’t think it matters if he sees someone say his shoes are ugly. (Which lord have mercy they’re more than ugly.) I sometimes think designers make crap like that just to see how crazy people will go over them because they KNOW it’s ugly. Unfortunately for us poor souls that have to look at it all, people buy the stuff simply because of the name that’s on the label.

  82. Fragrant Liar

    I’m like you. When I get upset or angry, I retreat inside of myself and get extremely quiet and reflective. So here are my quiet thoughts right back atchya.
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    So sorry to hear your bad news. But you WILL get healthier. Don’t give up, and keep the faith, sister.

  83. Fragrant Liar

    I’m like you. When I get upset or angry, I retreat inside of myself and get extremely quiet and reflective. So here are my quiet thoughts right back atchya.
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    So sorry to hear your bad news. But you WILL get healthier. Don’t give up, and keep the faith, sister.

  84. Fragrant Liar

    I’m like you. When I get upset or angry, I retreat inside of myself and get extremely quiet and reflective. So here are my quiet thoughts right back atchya.
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    So sorry to hear your bad news. But you WILL get healthier. Don’t give up, and keep the faith, sister.

  85. Vanya

    This IS bad news. Absolutely devastating but this is you we are talking about. You have already been dealing with this for so long and you know how time flies. It’s just a matter of adjusting your goals and facing every day as you have been doing and before you know it, it’ll be six months gone, then a year….
    I hope you find the peace you need over the weekend, you already have the strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.
    I believe that you will beat this.

  86. Vanya

    This IS bad news. Absolutely devastating but this is you we are talking about. You have already been dealing with this for so long and you know how time flies. It’s just a matter of adjusting your goals and facing every day as you have been doing and before you know it, it’ll be six months gone, then a year….
    I hope you find the peace you need over the weekend, you already have the strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.
    I believe that you will beat this.

  87. Vanya

    This IS bad news. Absolutely devastating but this is you we are talking about. You have already been dealing with this for so long and you know how time flies. It’s just a matter of adjusting your goals and facing every day as you have been doing and before you know it, it’ll be six months gone, then a year….
    I hope you find the peace you need over the weekend, you already have the strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.
    I believe that you will beat this.

  88. Midlife Slices

    Ahhh…but you’ve got the hardest parts behind you and just think how fast those have flown by (now that you look back). You’ve got so much support and you’re so strong and I know you can make it through another year and half, without a doubt.

  89. Midlife Slices

    Ahhh…but you’ve got the hardest parts behind you and just think how fast those have flown by (now that you look back). You’ve got so much support and you’re so strong and I know you can make it through another year and half, without a doubt.

  90. Midlife Slices

    Ahhh…but you’ve got the hardest parts behind you and just think how fast those have flown by (now that you look back). You’ve got so much support and you’re so strong and I know you can make it through another year and half, without a doubt.

  91. Elixa

    That really stinks!!! But please don’t despair. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel.

  92. Elixa

    That really stinks!!! But please don’t despair. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel.

  93. Elixa

    That really stinks!!! But please don’t despair. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel.

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