Baby Steps, Big Victories

Someone close to me confronted me recently.  Her intentions were good, and to be honest, she didn't say anything I haven't heard many times before.

"At what point," she asked, "Will you accept the fact - this is as good as it's going to get with your arm?"

… Silence …

She added, "You have to accept this is it.  This is the way you are now.  You can't go to physical therapy forever."

I know she cares greatly about my well being.  Her intentions are nothing but heartfelt.  As I listened to her – mentally I ticked off, one by one, a list of other friends and family members who have said nearly the exact same words to me since my car accident three and a half years ago.

"Move on with your life," one friend said.

"Forget about it now," said another.

Forget about it?  

How can I forget my arm dangles uselessly at my side?

My right, dominant, arm at that?

(If you think I should forget about it, or move on, I'd like to suggest you have someone tie your dominant arm down at your side for 24 hours.  Then come back to me after a normal day of activities and tell me if you've changed your mind.)

How can I "forget" I'm in pain every single moment?

Some people questioned why I underwent surgery number two.  Others questioned why I would subject myself to a whopping total of six surgeries.

I've been searching my heart.  I've been searching my soul.  I've been questioning my level of acceptance, as well as my level of denial, of this limitation my body now has.

We all know, we can't truly understand anyone else's experience without living it.  During the first two and a half years post car accident, I simply had no options.  The pain was unbearable and I would have done anything – anything at all – to make it stop.  Getting my arm to work was secondary … just please, please, make the pain stop.

The pain will probably never stop.

I know that now.  

I also know, with the help of an excellent surgeon (Dr. Schobert), and over a thousand hours of physical therapy, I can now manage my pain to reasonable levels most of the time.

I can live my life with pain like this.  It isn't ideal, but I can do it.

I couldn't live my life with the pain I had those first few years.  My teeth never unclenched.  It, literally, hurt to breathe.  All I could ever think of was, "Make it stop."

I am getting better.

And yet, I question myself too.

"Maybe it's time to give up," I think.

"How much longer?" I periodically ask The Torturer.

"You're still improving," he answers.  "You're regaining function.  You can do things now you couldn't do just a few months ago."

My camera, my love of photography, immediately springs to mind.

I can hold a camera now.  Granted, I primarily support it with my left, functioning, arm – but I couldn't have used that very same camera six months ago.  Indeed, I've learned the hard way, I can only shoot photos for short periods of time or I will pay for my efforts with skyrocketing pain.

But I am taking photos again.

I am getting better.

What many people don't understand is, because my arm doesn't function normally, all the surrounding muscles are also affected.  My neck, my back, my chest … those muscles all interact with my shoulder and arm.  Without movement, they wither and die causing me great pain in the process.  The Torturer moves my arm in ways I can't, which in turn works those surrounding muscles.  Without his help, I suffer so much more.

Did I just admit publicly The Torturer helps me?

Shhhh … don't tell him – I'll never hear the end of it.

All of these thoughts have weighed heavily on my mind lately.  Round and round my mind has gone – questioning, always questioning, if I'm making the right decisions in managing my "disability."

And then …

And then, yesterday, for the first time ever … as I lay on my back at PT, I was able to lift a three pound weight over my head.  Not once, not twice – but fifteen times.  It wasn't easy and yes, it really hurt.

I rested.

And then – I did it again, another fifteen times.

I don't think The Torturer could believe what he was seeing.

My heart is bursting with joy.

And pride.

I am getting better.

© Twenty Four At Heart

129 Responses to “Baby Steps, Big Victories”

  1. Joanne

    congratulations !! and sweetheart never, NEVER stop hoping. Hope is the desire of your heart…. and that is the voice in God’s ear.

  2. Joanne

    congratulations !! and sweetheart never, NEVER stop hoping. Hope is the desire of your heart…. and that is the voice in God’s ear.

  3. Joanne

    congratulations !! and sweetheart never, NEVER stop hoping. Hope is the desire of your heart…. and that is the voice in God’s ear.

  4. Jan

    I would NEVER tell you to accept the status quo; probably because, yes, I’m every bit as stubborn as you are. CONGRATULATIONS on your victory in PT yesterday! You ARE getting better and you will CONTINUE to get better.
    You RAWK, woman, and don’t ever let ANYONE tell you ANY different.

  5. Jan

    I would NEVER tell you to accept the status quo; probably because, yes, I’m every bit as stubborn as you are. CONGRATULATIONS on your victory in PT yesterday! You ARE getting better and you will CONTINUE to get better.
    You RAWK, woman, and don’t ever let ANYONE tell you ANY different.

  6. Jan

    I would NEVER tell you to accept the status quo; probably because, yes, I’m every bit as stubborn as you are. CONGRATULATIONS on your victory in PT yesterday! You ARE getting better and you will CONTINUE to get better.
    You RAWK, woman, and don’t ever let ANYONE tell you ANY different.

  7. Lori

    I am so proud of you for not listening to anyone else but your heart and those that know best. I am so proud you haven’t given up the good fight…and yes baby steps forward some days and sometimes backwards but all working towards you getting better. Keep fighting and advocating for yourself! Just reading this makes my day! 🙂

  8. Lori

    I am so proud of you for not listening to anyone else but your heart and those that know best. I am so proud you haven’t given up the good fight…and yes baby steps forward some days and sometimes backwards but all working towards you getting better. Keep fighting and advocating for yourself! Just reading this makes my day! 🙂

  9. Lori

    I am so proud of you for not listening to anyone else but your heart and those that know best. I am so proud you haven’t given up the good fight…and yes baby steps forward some days and sometimes backwards but all working towards you getting better. Keep fighting and advocating for yourself! Just reading this makes my day! 🙂

  10. Duchess

    I can see that your friend meant her advice lovingly, but it really was so misguided — even without your recent triumph! Reading your blog, and looking at the photos, I often have to remind myself that you are mainly one armed (and the wrong one at that). You seem to live your life so fully. I am always impressed.

  11. Duchess

    I can see that your friend meant her advice lovingly, but it really was so misguided — even without your recent triumph! Reading your blog, and looking at the photos, I often have to remind myself that you are mainly one armed (and the wrong one at that). You seem to live your life so fully. I am always impressed.

  12. Duchess

    I can see that your friend meant her advice lovingly, but it really was so misguided — even without your recent triumph! Reading your blog, and looking at the photos, I often have to remind myself that you are mainly one armed (and the wrong one at that). You seem to live your life so fully. I am always impressed.

  13. Maureen@IslandRoar

    OMG, when you said you lifted that weight 15 times, and then REPEATED it, I wanted to cry. That’s amazing. I have been so thrilled for you with the photography, but no one handed that to you; you’ve worked your ass off for it. Don’t listen to people, they don’t get it. You’re the only one living this. They don’t understand PT helps you Maintain. And many people never stop making progress. Ever. One sure way to stop making progress would be to listen to them and never go back.
    Comments like this must be so disheartening. Just chalk it up to ignorance. You rock.

  14. Maureen@IslandRoar

    OMG, when you said you lifted that weight 15 times, and then REPEATED it, I wanted to cry. That’s amazing. I have been so thrilled for you with the photography, but no one handed that to you; you’ve worked your ass off for it. Don’t listen to people, they don’t get it. You’re the only one living this. They don’t understand PT helps you Maintain. And many people never stop making progress. Ever. One sure way to stop making progress would be to listen to them and never go back.
    Comments like this must be so disheartening. Just chalk it up to ignorance. You rock.

  15. Maureen@IslandRoar

    OMG, when you said you lifted that weight 15 times, and then REPEATED it, I wanted to cry. That’s amazing. I have been so thrilled for you with the photography, but no one handed that to you; you’ve worked your ass off for it. Don’t listen to people, they don’t get it. You’re the only one living this. They don’t understand PT helps you Maintain. And many people never stop making progress. Ever. One sure way to stop making progress would be to listen to them and never go back.
    Comments like this must be so disheartening. Just chalk it up to ignorance. You rock.

  16. Kristan

    Oh frak, 24, now I’m crying.
    I’m so happy for you. I know friends have good intentions even when they say bad things (haha that’s usually me) but I would NEVER tell you to give up on this, and I’m glad you didn’t. You will improve! You are already exceeding everyone’s expectations! And you take some kick@$$ photos. 🙂
    Keep at it!

  17. Kristan

    Oh frak, 24, now I’m crying.
    I’m so happy for you. I know friends have good intentions even when they say bad things (haha that’s usually me) but I would NEVER tell you to give up on this, and I’m glad you didn’t. You will improve! You are already exceeding everyone’s expectations! And you take some kick@$$ photos. 🙂
    Keep at it!

  18. Kristan

    Oh frak, 24, now I’m crying.
    I’m so happy for you. I know friends have good intentions even when they say bad things (haha that’s usually me) but I would NEVER tell you to give up on this, and I’m glad you didn’t. You will improve! You are already exceeding everyone’s expectations! And you take some kick@$$ photos. 🙂
    Keep at it!

  19. Anne

    Keep it up! Do not listen to those advices. You ARE getting better and the mind plays a big role. Congratulations. Your post made me smile. Thank you. There are wonders. Just believe.

  20. Anne

    Keep it up! Do not listen to those advices. You ARE getting better and the mind plays a big role. Congratulations. Your post made me smile. Thank you. There are wonders. Just believe.

  21. Anne

    Keep it up! Do not listen to those advices. You ARE getting better and the mind plays a big role. Congratulations. Your post made me smile. Thank you. There are wonders. Just believe.

  22. Stephen

    Don’t quit. Here’s an observation regarding your photographs. When you were just using a little point and shoot, your pics were good. Nice family album pics. But now, they are different. Not just the quality of the image reproduction, but your soul is coming alive in them and as a result the pics come alive as well. No physical therapy = no progress = no camera = no re-emergence of a dormant gift. A gift that not only nourishes your soul but those of us who follow 24 as well.
    One other little selfish reader thought. When you do over do it with your camera, not only do we get more pics to look at, but we also get the occasional “medicated” post. Those are classic. Keep up the hard work.

  23. Stephen

    Don’t quit. Here’s an observation regarding your photographs. When you were just using a little point and shoot, your pics were good. Nice family album pics. But now, they are different. Not just the quality of the image reproduction, but your soul is coming alive in them and as a result the pics come alive as well. No physical therapy = no progress = no camera = no re-emergence of a dormant gift. A gift that not only nourishes your soul but those of us who follow 24 as well.
    One other little selfish reader thought. When you do over do it with your camera, not only do we get more pics to look at, but we also get the occasional “medicated” post. Those are classic. Keep up the hard work.

  24. Stephen

    Don’t quit. Here’s an observation regarding your photographs. When you were just using a little point and shoot, your pics were good. Nice family album pics. But now, they are different. Not just the quality of the image reproduction, but your soul is coming alive in them and as a result the pics come alive as well. No physical therapy = no progress = no camera = no re-emergence of a dormant gift. A gift that not only nourishes your soul but those of us who follow 24 as well.
    One other little selfish reader thought. When you do over do it with your camera, not only do we get more pics to look at, but we also get the occasional “medicated” post. Those are classic. Keep up the hard work.

  25. middle-aged-woman

    24, that is huge! Tell your friend you will stop physical therapy as soon as you stop seeing improvements from it! Or tell her to STFU!
    Also, on a totally insensitive note, I tagged you with a meme. However, it is both easy and thought-provoking, thereby making me the best friend ever.

  26. middle-aged-woman

    24, that is huge! Tell your friend you will stop physical therapy as soon as you stop seeing improvements from it! Or tell her to STFU!
    Also, on a totally insensitive note, I tagged you with a meme. However, it is both easy and thought-provoking, thereby making me the best friend ever.

  27. middle-aged-woman

    24, that is huge! Tell your friend you will stop physical therapy as soon as you stop seeing improvements from it! Or tell her to STFU!
    Also, on a totally insensitive note, I tagged you with a meme. However, it is both easy and thought-provoking, thereby making me the best friend ever.

  28. Linda

    YES! That is AWESOME!!! OMG! That news brouget tears to my eyes! 24 this is HUGE! Don’t ever give up.

  29. Linda

    YES! That is AWESOME!!! OMG! That news brouget tears to my eyes! 24 this is HUGE! Don’t ever give up.

  30. Linda

    YES! That is AWESOME!!! OMG! That news brouget tears to my eyes! 24 this is HUGE! Don’t ever give up.

  31. Linda

    BTW, I DID try to get through my day NOT using my right arm. I couldn’t get dressed. You’ve come a long way baby!

  32. Linda

    BTW, I DID try to get through my day NOT using my right arm. I couldn’t get dressed. You’ve come a long way baby!

  33. Linda

    BTW, I DID try to get through my day NOT using my right arm. I couldn’t get dressed. You’ve come a long way baby!

  34. janjanmom

    Only YOU can know when it is time to quit…and I think you are a long way from it based on the facts not the feelings.
    I am proud of you for keeping on keeping on!

  35. janjanmom

    Only YOU can know when it is time to quit…and I think you are a long way from it based on the facts not the feelings.
    I am proud of you for keeping on keeping on!

  36. janjanmom

    Only YOU can know when it is time to quit…and I think you are a long way from it based on the facts not the feelings.
    I am proud of you for keeping on keeping on!

  37. Kelly

    GOOD FOR YOU!! This brought tears to my eyes. I know we only get a small glimpse into your ongoing battle in this area. How tough it must be day after day! Don’t ever give up.

  38. Kelly

    GOOD FOR YOU!! This brought tears to my eyes. I know we only get a small glimpse into your ongoing battle in this area. How tough it must be day after day! Don’t ever give up.

  39. Kelly

    GOOD FOR YOU!! This brought tears to my eyes. I know we only get a small glimpse into your ongoing battle in this area. How tough it must be day after day! Don’t ever give up.

  40. missy

    Like Linda I have thought about how you manage when I am performing ordinary mindless tasks throughout the day – like putting on a bra or washing my hair, etc. That 3 lb weight might as well have been a 300 lb. weight! What an achievement 24. It makes all the hard work and pain worth it.

  41. missy

    Like Linda I have thought about how you manage when I am performing ordinary mindless tasks throughout the day – like putting on a bra or washing my hair, etc. That 3 lb weight might as well have been a 300 lb. weight! What an achievement 24. It makes all the hard work and pain worth it.

  42. missy

    Like Linda I have thought about how you manage when I am performing ordinary mindless tasks throughout the day – like putting on a bra or washing my hair, etc. That 3 lb weight might as well have been a 300 lb. weight! What an achievement 24. It makes all the hard work and pain worth it.

  43. The Queen of Chaos

    Keep doing what’s working for you. Advice is often meant from the heart but not understood until we’ve been in one’s shoes. Keep doing what’s working for you.

  44. The Queen of Chaos

    Keep doing what’s working for you. Advice is often meant from the heart but not understood until we’ve been in one’s shoes. Keep doing what’s working for you.

  45. The Queen of Chaos

    Keep doing what’s working for you. Advice is often meant from the heart but not understood until we’ve been in one’s shoes. Keep doing what’s working for you.

  46. Nancy P

    OMG that is wonderful and awesome and it made me cry! 30 times THIRTY times you lifted that weight! ! ! You go with your bad self. 🙂

  47. Nancy P

    OMG that is wonderful and awesome and it made me cry! 30 times THIRTY times you lifted that weight! ! ! You go with your bad self. 🙂

  48. Nancy P

    OMG that is wonderful and awesome and it made me cry! 30 times THIRTY times you lifted that weight! ! ! You go with your bad self. 🙂

  49. Liz Tee

    Soooo happy!!! As long as you’re making progress and are willing to keep pushing, they need to STFU and leave you alone.
    I had a frozen shoulder that took over 8 months of physical therapy to break loose (literally). I know what you mean about all those muscles being affected. It really sucks. I can now ALMOST undo my bra in the back with my right arm again. Almost.

  50. Liz Tee

    Soooo happy!!! As long as you’re making progress and are willing to keep pushing, they need to STFU and leave you alone.
    I had a frozen shoulder that took over 8 months of physical therapy to break loose (literally). I know what you mean about all those muscles being affected. It really sucks. I can now ALMOST undo my bra in the back with my right arm again. Almost.

  51. Liz Tee

    Soooo happy!!! As long as you’re making progress and are willing to keep pushing, they need to STFU and leave you alone.
    I had a frozen shoulder that took over 8 months of physical therapy to break loose (literally). I know what you mean about all those muscles being affected. It really sucks. I can now ALMOST undo my bra in the back with my right arm again. Almost.

  52. jessica

    Don’t you dare quit. You are right, until someone is walking in your shoes, they cannot know what you are experiencing. You are getting better, I don’t care if you weren’t, b/c if it makes your day more bearable to go see the torturer than by all means, do it. So many people give up in the face of adversity and they love nothing more,in the name of love, to try to convince you to do the same. You are a fighter. Keep fighting.

  53. jessica

    Don’t you dare quit. You are right, until someone is walking in your shoes, they cannot know what you are experiencing. You are getting better, I don’t care if you weren’t, b/c if it makes your day more bearable to go see the torturer than by all means, do it. So many people give up in the face of adversity and they love nothing more,in the name of love, to try to convince you to do the same. You are a fighter. Keep fighting.

  54. jessica

    Don’t you dare quit. You are right, until someone is walking in your shoes, they cannot know what you are experiencing. You are getting better, I don’t care if you weren’t, b/c if it makes your day more bearable to go see the torturer than by all means, do it. So many people give up in the face of adversity and they love nothing more,in the name of love, to try to convince you to do the same. You are a fighter. Keep fighting.

  55. Momma Pixie

    FANTASTIC! Don’t ever let anyone tell you what you should and shouldn’t do. Only you know what is best for you and that is the path you follow. Just tune the rubbish out!

  56. Momma Pixie

    FANTASTIC! Don’t ever let anyone tell you what you should and shouldn’t do. Only you know what is best for you and that is the path you follow. Just tune the rubbish out!

  57. Momma Pixie

    FANTASTIC! Don’t ever let anyone tell you what you should and shouldn’t do. Only you know what is best for you and that is the path you follow. Just tune the rubbish out!

  58. Sandi

    You made me cry! Yay for YOU. Don’t give up, EVER! You will get out of that arm what you put into it. I am so proud of you. You have worked your ass off and it’s paying off.

  59. Sandi

    You made me cry! Yay for YOU. Don’t give up, EVER! You will get out of that arm what you put into it. I am so proud of you. You have worked your ass off and it’s paying off.

  60. Sandi

    You made me cry! Yay for YOU. Don’t give up, EVER! You will get out of that arm what you put into it. I am so proud of you. You have worked your ass off and it’s paying off.

  61. mama llama

    I will not permit those who “enable” weakness on my part to become a very close part of my life anymore. I need strength–strength engenders strength. I remember my ‘best friend’ kept telling me I didn’t have to be a martyr in childbirth with my eldest monkey. However, I WANTED to have a drug-free birth and I thus made the decision I would not call her when I went into labor because I couldn’t have her negative energy working against what I felt so personally strongly about.
    Good for YOU!! You ARE getting better and I LOVE that you work it. You are improving YOURSELF!!!
    Continue to be GREAT, 24!

  62. mama llama

    I will not permit those who “enable” weakness on my part to become a very close part of my life anymore. I need strength–strength engenders strength. I remember my ‘best friend’ kept telling me I didn’t have to be a martyr in childbirth with my eldest monkey. However, I WANTED to have a drug-free birth and I thus made the decision I would not call her when I went into labor because I couldn’t have her negative energy working against what I felt so personally strongly about.
    Good for YOU!! You ARE getting better and I LOVE that you work it. You are improving YOURSELF!!!
    Continue to be GREAT, 24!

  63. mama llama

    I will not permit those who “enable” weakness on my part to become a very close part of my life anymore. I need strength–strength engenders strength. I remember my ‘best friend’ kept telling me I didn’t have to be a martyr in childbirth with my eldest monkey. However, I WANTED to have a drug-free birth and I thus made the decision I would not call her when I went into labor because I couldn’t have her negative energy working against what I felt so personally strongly about.
    Good for YOU!! You ARE getting better and I LOVE that you work it. You are improving YOURSELF!!!
    Continue to be GREAT, 24!

  64. LPC

    Hooray! This is exactly why the term, “Fighting the good fight,” was created.

  65. LPC

    Hooray! This is exactly why the term, “Fighting the good fight,” was created.

  66. LPC

    Hooray! This is exactly why the term, “Fighting the good fight,” was created.

  67. Jenn in Tenn

    Yaaaaaaaaaaay! I am sooo proud of you! I’m sure none of us could even come close to imagining what you go through every day, I applaud you and your determination! (and the Torturer, too, just don’t tell him that!) Keep up the good work!

  68. Jenn in Tenn

    Yaaaaaaaaaaay! I am sooo proud of you! I’m sure none of us could even come close to imagining what you go through every day, I applaud you and your determination! (and the Torturer, too, just don’t tell him that!) Keep up the good work!

  69. Jenn in Tenn

    Yaaaaaaaaaaay! I am sooo proud of you! I’m sure none of us could even come close to imagining what you go through every day, I applaud you and your determination! (and the Torturer, too, just don’t tell him that!) Keep up the good work!

  70. Linda Tustin

    24, you are one of the bravest people I know and your post did make me cry tears of joy for you. Keep being your same Badass brave self. You have obviously affected a lot of people with your perserverence and wisdom. ((hugs)) sorry about the bad weather too….

  71. Linda Tustin

    24, you are one of the bravest people I know and your post did make me cry tears of joy for you. Keep being your same Badass brave self. You have obviously affected a lot of people with your perserverence and wisdom. ((hugs)) sorry about the bad weather too….

  72. Linda Tustin

    24, you are one of the bravest people I know and your post did make me cry tears of joy for you. Keep being your same Badass brave self. You have obviously affected a lot of people with your perserverence and wisdom. ((hugs)) sorry about the bad weather too….

  73. Pam

    Good for you!!! I’m sure your friend was trying to be helpful, but then you feel like you need to justify going to PT. You’re seeing great results, so keep it up!
    P.S. My calendar came today and it is SOOOOO beautiful! Thank you!

  74. Pam

    Good for you!!! I’m sure your friend was trying to be helpful, but then you feel like you need to justify going to PT. You’re seeing great results, so keep it up!
    P.S. My calendar came today and it is SOOOOO beautiful! Thank you!

  75. Pam

    Good for you!!! I’m sure your friend was trying to be helpful, but then you feel like you need to justify going to PT. You’re seeing great results, so keep it up!
    P.S. My calendar came today and it is SOOOOO beautiful! Thank you!

  76. Karen

    Only you know what is best for you. Since I started following your blog, I can tell you have been improving. You have worked very hard to get back some of the things you lost due to the accident and you have.
    It sounds like you have a wonderful surgeon and of course the Torturer, both looking out for your best interest. I don’t think either one of them would have you continue with any of it if they didn’t think it would help your recovery and usage improvement.
    Besides, if the Torturer didn’t have you to take out his frustrations on, what would he do? Small children and innocent kittens in Southern California would never be safe again.
    I think you are an incredibly strong woman and would not be happy with your life unless you tried to get the most use back in your arm as possible. Keep on improving.
    Have a good one.

  77. Karen

    Only you know what is best for you. Since I started following your blog, I can tell you have been improving. You have worked very hard to get back some of the things you lost due to the accident and you have.
    It sounds like you have a wonderful surgeon and of course the Torturer, both looking out for your best interest. I don’t think either one of them would have you continue with any of it if they didn’t think it would help your recovery and usage improvement.
    Besides, if the Torturer didn’t have you to take out his frustrations on, what would he do? Small children and innocent kittens in Southern California would never be safe again.
    I think you are an incredibly strong woman and would not be happy with your life unless you tried to get the most use back in your arm as possible. Keep on improving.
    Have a good one.

  78. Karen

    Only you know what is best for you. Since I started following your blog, I can tell you have been improving. You have worked very hard to get back some of the things you lost due to the accident and you have.
    It sounds like you have a wonderful surgeon and of course the Torturer, both looking out for your best interest. I don’t think either one of them would have you continue with any of it if they didn’t think it would help your recovery and usage improvement.
    Besides, if the Torturer didn’t have you to take out his frustrations on, what would he do? Small children and innocent kittens in Southern California would never be safe again.
    I think you are an incredibly strong woman and would not be happy with your life unless you tried to get the most use back in your arm as possible. Keep on improving.
    Have a good one.

  79. Cathy B.

    Don’t think I’ve commented before, but this post really made me want to tell you not to give up! You’re making progress, and I remember a post a while back where you wanted to give up because you thought nothing was changing. I think improvements just don’t happen in a steady progression, and even though you don’t think anything is happening, you can’t always tell. I’m so happy for you, and I know you’ll keep getting better if you keep at it. Getting your camera & using it, that was amazing. Managing your pain compared to how it used to be, that’s amazing too. And lifting those weights – holy cow, that’s really freaking amazing. And if you did it once, you can do it again. You go, 24!

  80. Cathy B.

    Don’t think I’ve commented before, but this post really made me want to tell you not to give up! You’re making progress, and I remember a post a while back where you wanted to give up because you thought nothing was changing. I think improvements just don’t happen in a steady progression, and even though you don’t think anything is happening, you can’t always tell. I’m so happy for you, and I know you’ll keep getting better if you keep at it. Getting your camera & using it, that was amazing. Managing your pain compared to how it used to be, that’s amazing too. And lifting those weights – holy cow, that’s really freaking amazing. And if you did it once, you can do it again. You go, 24!

  81. Cathy B.

    Don’t think I’ve commented before, but this post really made me want to tell you not to give up! You’re making progress, and I remember a post a while back where you wanted to give up because you thought nothing was changing. I think improvements just don’t happen in a steady progression, and even though you don’t think anything is happening, you can’t always tell. I’m so happy for you, and I know you’ll keep getting better if you keep at it. Getting your camera & using it, that was amazing. Managing your pain compared to how it used to be, that’s amazing too. And lifting those weights – holy cow, that’s really freaking amazing. And if you did it once, you can do it again. You go, 24!

  82. steenky bee

    OH!!!!!!!!! My heart is bursting right there along with you. I’m so glad this is how this post ended. As I was reading along, I was preparing myself to leave a long-winded rant about not giving up, blah, blah, good stuff….. YOU WILL DO IT!

  83. steenky bee

    OH!!!!!!!!! My heart is bursting right there along with you. I’m so glad this is how this post ended. As I was reading along, I was preparing myself to leave a long-winded rant about not giving up, blah, blah, good stuff….. YOU WILL DO IT!

  84. steenky bee

    OH!!!!!!!!! My heart is bursting right there along with you. I’m so glad this is how this post ended. As I was reading along, I was preparing myself to leave a long-winded rant about not giving up, blah, blah, good stuff….. YOU WILL DO IT!

  85. mckay

    wooo!!! even before you wrote of your victory i was going to tell you to never quit, as you will always be able to improve that arm :0) CONGRATS!

  86. mckay

    wooo!!! even before you wrote of your victory i was going to tell you to never quit, as you will always be able to improve that arm :0) CONGRATS!

  87. mckay

    wooo!!! even before you wrote of your victory i was going to tell you to never quit, as you will always be able to improve that arm :0) CONGRATS!

  88. Jane

    OMG! Best. News. EVER!!
    And I don’t usually use exclamation points, but I want to add a hundred of them now. Congratulations, and keep up the hope!

  89. Jane

    OMG! Best. News. EVER!!
    And I don’t usually use exclamation points, but I want to add a hundred of them now. Congratulations, and keep up the hope!

  90. Jane

    OMG! Best. News. EVER!!
    And I don’t usually use exclamation points, but I want to add a hundred of them now. Congratulations, and keep up the hope!

  91. cute~ella

    Lovie, I realize she was concerned and trying to express that, but why is it her business of why you keep going?
    I love that you haven’t given up.
    I love that you see your progress.
    I am so proud of you.
    There might come a time when you don’t make more progress, but the PT will always help with the pain and the other muscles. Keep at it. HUGS!

  92. cute~ella

    Lovie, I realize she was concerned and trying to express that, but why is it her business of why you keep going?
    I love that you haven’t given up.
    I love that you see your progress.
    I am so proud of you.
    There might come a time when you don’t make more progress, but the PT will always help with the pain and the other muscles. Keep at it. HUGS!

  93. cute~ella

    Lovie, I realize she was concerned and trying to express that, but why is it her business of why you keep going?
    I love that you haven’t given up.
    I love that you see your progress.
    I am so proud of you.
    There might come a time when you don’t make more progress, but the PT will always help with the pain and the other muscles. Keep at it. HUGS!

  94. Judi

    Congratulations! That is such great progress and I can only imagine the rush it gave you. I just finished up 2 months of PT after cervical surgery, and still have residual nerve damage in my shoulder (luckily not my dominant arm) that will take several more months to heal. I have a teeny insight into your situation and am really thrilled for you.

  95. Judi

    Congratulations! That is such great progress and I can only imagine the rush it gave you. I just finished up 2 months of PT after cervical surgery, and still have residual nerve damage in my shoulder (luckily not my dominant arm) that will take several more months to heal. I have a teeny insight into your situation and am really thrilled for you.

  96. Judi

    Congratulations! That is such great progress and I can only imagine the rush it gave you. I just finished up 2 months of PT after cervical surgery, and still have residual nerve damage in my shoulder (luckily not my dominant arm) that will take several more months to heal. I have a teeny insight into your situation and am really thrilled for you.

  97. Gayle

    I just had to comment on your post. I started following your blog when I purchased my kindle in November. I broke my left arm right under my shoulder in three places. I was in a dirt bike accident and my whole left side was bruised and sore. I could barely more for at least a month and now 10 weeks later, I am just now feeling somewhat normal. I ran across your post and it encouraged me and made me laugh when I was having a tough day. I just want to thank you for sharing on your blog. Keep up the great work on the blog and in your therapy. I know just being able to move my arm just an inch more is a big deal to me and an inch more than I could do before. I will continue to read your blog and be encouraged by your progress. You have to keep at it for yourself and no one else. 🙂

  98. Gayle

    I just had to comment on your post. I started following your blog when I purchased my kindle in November. I broke my left arm right under my shoulder in three places. I was in a dirt bike accident and my whole left side was bruised and sore. I could barely more for at least a month and now 10 weeks later, I am just now feeling somewhat normal. I ran across your post and it encouraged me and made me laugh when I was having a tough day. I just want to thank you for sharing on your blog. Keep up the great work on the blog and in your therapy. I know just being able to move my arm just an inch more is a big deal to me and an inch more than I could do before. I will continue to read your blog and be encouraged by your progress. You have to keep at it for yourself and no one else. 🙂

  99. Gayle

    I just had to comment on your post. I started following your blog when I purchased my kindle in November. I broke my left arm right under my shoulder in three places. I was in a dirt bike accident and my whole left side was bruised and sore. I could barely more for at least a month and now 10 weeks later, I am just now feeling somewhat normal. I ran across your post and it encouraged me and made me laugh when I was having a tough day. I just want to thank you for sharing on your blog. Keep up the great work on the blog and in your therapy. I know just being able to move my arm just an inch more is a big deal to me and an inch more than I could do before. I will continue to read your blog and be encouraged by your progress. You have to keep at it for yourself and no one else. 🙂

  100. Jilli

    I’ve never commented before but I want you to know how strong I think you are. You have inspired me so much with my own struggles. Don’t let anyone else influence you. Follow your heart and NEVER GIVE UP.

  101. Jilli

    I’ve never commented before but I want you to know how strong I think you are. You have inspired me so much with my own struggles. Don’t let anyone else influence you. Follow your heart and NEVER GIVE UP.

  102. Jilli

    I’ve never commented before but I want you to know how strong I think you are. You have inspired me so much with my own struggles. Don’t let anyone else influence you. Follow your heart and NEVER GIVE UP.

  103. Issa

    I think you’ll know when it’s as good as it can get. However, no one else can answer that for you.
    It’s not the same…but I had shoulder surgery after a car accident seven years ago next month. I did a year of PT afterward. I never thought I’d not be in pain, or be able to use my arm again. But I can. It’s not strong, it never will be. The muscles are weak and non-existent in some places. I have nerves that ended up so damaged that I can only feel part of my upper arm. I will never be able to write more than a check, without being in pain. But I can do things, i never thought I’d do. Carry my babies. Text. Type. Braid my daughters hair. Hold my camera. 🙂
    It may never be great, but I think there is more you can do. I think that no one can tell you what is enough. Only you.

  104. Issa

    I think you’ll know when it’s as good as it can get. However, no one else can answer that for you.
    It’s not the same…but I had shoulder surgery after a car accident seven years ago next month. I did a year of PT afterward. I never thought I’d not be in pain, or be able to use my arm again. But I can. It’s not strong, it never will be. The muscles are weak and non-existent in some places. I have nerves that ended up so damaged that I can only feel part of my upper arm. I will never be able to write more than a check, without being in pain. But I can do things, i never thought I’d do. Carry my babies. Text. Type. Braid my daughters hair. Hold my camera. 🙂
    It may never be great, but I think there is more you can do. I think that no one can tell you what is enough. Only you.

  105. Issa

    I think you’ll know when it’s as good as it can get. However, no one else can answer that for you.
    It’s not the same…but I had shoulder surgery after a car accident seven years ago next month. I did a year of PT afterward. I never thought I’d not be in pain, or be able to use my arm again. But I can. It’s not strong, it never will be. The muscles are weak and non-existent in some places. I have nerves that ended up so damaged that I can only feel part of my upper arm. I will never be able to write more than a check, without being in pain. But I can do things, i never thought I’d do. Carry my babies. Text. Type. Braid my daughters hair. Hold my camera. 🙂
    It may never be great, but I think there is more you can do. I think that no one can tell you what is enough. Only you.

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