Thank you to everyone who has sent well wishes. I really appreciate it.
I'm doing better, but still tenative with my vision.
And okay, I sorta feel like I've been run over by a truck too.
I'm having trouble reading still. I'm very limited in the amount of time I can look at a computer screen. I look at the screen for a few seconds, close my eyes to rest, and then try again. On my MacBook, I can make the type-size enormous which helps me read. My eyes are still in the process of healing and need a lot of rest.
Forgive me for not replying to emails and/or visiting blogs, etc. right now. Reading hurts and I'm not supposed to be straining my eyes (reading) yet.
I've gotten all sorts of questions from people. Some of them are funny.
For example, I do live in The OC, but I did not injure my eyes having a "chemical peel."
Which is not to say my wrinkles couldn't benefit from a chemical peel, but no thank you just the same.
Basically, I had a severe allergic reaction to some eye medication. It began with just a lot (!) of swelling and insanely red itchy eyes for a few days … also, red itchy, hive-like, skin surrounding my eyes. (I still feel like a raccoon with red, swollen, circles around my eyes.)
Last Wednesday, I noticed I had really blurry, clouded, vision. I started to get scared. I told myself it was just a side effect from the allergic reaction and would get better on its own.
When I woke up last Thursday my eyes were burning so severely I couldn't keep them open. I never knew eyes could hurt so badly. If I could have torn them out of my head for relief, I would have. I was running a pretty high fever. My eyes were bright red and tearing uncontrollably.
In addition to terrible pain, I couldn't see much of anything.
I was scared to death.
I called my eye doctor; she had the day off.
Of course she did.
It took several hours to finally get in with another eye doctor.
He was wonderful.
Seriously, thank God for that eye doctor. He wins my family's business for life.
He numbed my eyes and I groveled at his feet in thanks for the pain relief.
Well, not really, but almost.
Unfortunately, the numbing was only very temporary. The medication used to numb eyes also slows their healing, so I had to tough out the worst of it.
The doc explained to me the allergic reaction had been so severe, it had basically acted as a chemical burn to my corneas. A few days after the initial reaction, my corneas sloughed off the burned skin … kind of like peeling after a sunburn.
He saw severely lacerated corneas with lots of abrasions when he examined me.
Holy shit, the pain!
They put a special type of contact lens on my eyes. The contact lenses are used, apparently, with trauma victims to help heal badly injured eyes.
The skin around my eyes was so "burned," it actually began bleeding during my eye exam.
I was put on a zillion types of medications, including a host of eye drops which all sting like hell.
My kitchen counter looked like a pharmacy, but I couldn't see it so I guess that's okay. There were so many eyedrops Briefcase had to put post-it notes by each bottle to keep them, and the directions for each, straight. Add to that, pain killers, antibiotics, sleeping pills … drugs, drugs, drugs!
I stayed in a dark room for a few days, only coming out for daily visits to the eye doctor.
Over the weekend, I began to be able to see BIG things. I could even see the TV eventually, but I'm not supposed to watch it yet. (I listen to it instead, because I'm bored out of my mind!)
I wear sunglasses even in the house but I can't bear to go outside even with them on. (The only exception, so far, being my trips to the eye doc.) My eyes are intensely light-sensitive.
Each day is getting better. The pain is SO much better. My vision is improving gradually. I'm still using a few types of eyedrops, but the number of medications has decreased substantially.
Every day I try to read, and get frustrated and panicky when I can't for more than a minute or two. My blackberry blinking at me with its damn red light is particularly frustrating because I can't read the damn thing. The doctor tells me it is due to residual swelling in my eyes and it will gradually improve.
I feel like I've been to hell and back in the last week.
I look forward to getting back to my normal life. I can't wait to go outside during daylight without the sunlight piercing my eyes with pain. I can't wait to be able to read, and write without it hurting. I picked up my camera and just held it last night. Soon.
In the meantime, thank you for hanging in there with me. I'm sorry for being such a downer lately, but things will be getting better every day now.
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