Dear Stereotypical Orange County Women:
I'm sorry I'm a disappointment to you.
I'm sorry my boobs are made of breast tissue and not silicone or saline bags.
I'm sorry my lips aren't filled with plastic fillers and that I was born blonde.
I'm sorry I haven't had a tummy tuck when I so clearly need one.
I'm sorry I'm writing and that people all over the world are kind enough to take the time to read my drivel.
I know you don't want me "representing" you anymore than I want you representing me.
I'm sorry I don't fit the mold you would like to impose on me.
You know – the role of being extremely materialistic, extremely concerned about my appearance, and extremely concerned about money.
In other words … shallow.
You resent my blog, my photography, and the fact that others have embraced who I am and you've told me so.
I have offended you be using swear words both on my blog and on twitter, and periodically by adding colors like pink and purple to my hair. I've written about offensive topics such as bikini waxes and sex, publicly, which drives you to distraction.
More recently, I have offended you by getting a tattoo.
You wanted to let me know personally that you were "unfollowing" me because of it.
I'm sorry I've written I'm sorry – because I'm really not.
I don't care.
I think, perhaps, that is the thing that bothers you the most.
I don't care.
I was born independent by nature and it's a quality my parents encouraged and nurtured.
I do what I want, when I want, when I can.
As long as I'm not hurting anyone else by being who I am (and I'm not), I don't understand why it's such an issue for you.
You're not shy about letting me know how much you disapprove of me.
I don't mind you aren't like me.
I don't expect anyone to be like me.
I accept you, with all your faults, for who you are.
(And by the way, you DO have faults – quite a few of them.)
I may not always like you, but I accept you.
You, however, want to change me, reform me, mold me into what you think I should be.
I'm far from perfect and I'm very aware of that.
I accepted my faults, which I continue to work on, several years ago.
If you took the time to get to know me this is what you would learn –
I'm forever loyal to the people I care about.
If I love you as a friend, as a family member, or as more – I will love you for life.
If you are genuine, I will accept you no matter how different we might be.
I'm very shy in groups but, obviously, not at all in my writing.
I'm an animal lover and my heart goes all soft and mushy around them.
I have a knack for doing "stupid" things, and yet I'm actually very intelligent.
Or so the IQ tests say ….
If my brain isn't stimulated, or I lose my creative outlets, I go stir crazy.
If you make me laugh, I will most likely love you on the spot.
I love to laugh and I have a sarcastic and abundant sense of humor.
I value people with the strength to be who they are.
I can't stand hypocritical people. At all.
Money and material things mean very little to me.
I'm passionate about my writing and photography.
I will forgive, and forgive, and forgive again – and I've been hurt many times because of it. It's a characteristic about myself I can't change, but sometimes I wish I could.
The car accident I was in, and what I've been through as a result, has forever changed me.
I have learned, truly learned, life is short and can change, irreversibly, in a second.
I know the above statement is fact. I've lived it in a way few people ever have, and I will live the rest of my life with my priorities in order because of it.
Is not a priority.
© Twenty Four At Heart