Hello Old Friend.
You'd probably be surprised to hear I think of you quite a lot.
I've been assuming you've moved on with your life and never think of me at all.
But I guess you do remember me, and our friendship, occasionally.
Once in awhile, you check in on me by visiting here at Twenty Four At Heart.
You probably think you're anonymous, reading what I write without me knowing you've stopped by. After all, I don't know who the majority of people are who stop by to visit.
My blog stats only show me a few things. I see the number of people who read Twenty Four At Heart, and I see the cities and countries they visit from, but I don't see names or identifying details.
And all the people who read me on their iPhones, and Blackberries, or other smartphones?
Well, all I really see then is that someone logged on from a phone.
But sometimes …
Sometimes, I see you there, very VISIBLY, on my stat page.
And every single time …
It makes my heart hurt.
I miss you.
Losing you was one of the most painful aspects of the car accident aftermath.
You know …
The aftermath that just keeps on coming, and coming, and never seems to stop.
What do you feel when you visit here?
Are you stopping by because you're curious about my life?
Are you bitter and angry?
Do you have regrets?
I wonder if, as you read my words, you ever miss me?
There is so much more to me, so much more to my life, than what I write about here.
The biggest pieces of my life are, in fact, the things I can't write about in a public forum.
Those are all the things I used to talk to you about.
But now, instead, once in awhile you read the words I've written.
You look at the photos I've posted.
How much simpler would it be to just pick up the phone and call?
You could hear my voice and ask me, yourself, how I am.
I know for you it would be a very difficult thing to do.
And so, the phone remains quiet …
Always so quiet.
Maybe you're not that surprised I think of you a lot.
Sometimes you still visit Twenty Four At Heart.
Every single time it makes my heart hurt.
I miss you.
© Twenty Four At Heart