I’m so glad it’s now 2012.
Writing 2011 always felt funny and awkward.
Twelve (and 24, of course!) are my favorite numbers. Writing 2012 will just FEEL better.
Also, the year 2011 really didn’t live up to my hopes and expectations. I think there was just too much of the old, carrying in to the new year.
The railroad tracks have run right along the beach in San Clemente forever.
I have a good feeling about 2012, though.
I’m not sure what’s on the horizon for this upcoming year, but it feels like something is.
I’m not a big resolution maker.
On the other hand,
One thing I’ve learned these past few months is I need to take better care of me.
I know (probably better than many people do), life is never perfect.
I’m not expecting perfection out of 2012 –
I’m just expecting it to be better than 2011.
I’m going to pull the selfish card and make myself a bigger priority in the upcoming year.
Having people (like Dr. Painless and The Neanderthal – my new PT) help me manage my pain level has to become a much bigger priority.
As much as I really, really, haven’t wanted to return to physical therapy …
The fact is, I need help if I want to live my life without crippling pain. (The last few months of 2011 were brutal. I don’t want to go back to that spot again – ever.)
So: Resolution #1 is to stay in physical therapy.
There is no Resolution #2.
I know, if I can get my pain under control –
And KEEP it under control ….
So many other things in my life will fall into place.
I could beat myself up about so many things over the last five years –
But, guess what?
When you’re having surgery, after surgery, and living with high levels of pain –
Everything else gets forgotten and put aside.
It just becomes impossible to focus on much of anything.
Whenever I have come up for air, I’ve tried to make everybody else happy.
This year, I’m going to focus more –
I’m going to focus more on me.