The Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day

Yesterday sucked.

On my way to my follow-up mammogram,

My almost brand new car stalled out.

For no reason.

It left me, temporarily, stranded in the middle of a busy intersection.

“Not today,” I groaned.

Then I swore because what new car STALLS FOR NO REASON?

Also …?

I have no time to take it into the dealer to be looked at.

(At least it’s under warranty, right?)

Also …?

I was not in the best of moods because of the breast-concern-problem-call-back.

Black and white photo taken several weeks ago as a storm approached Santa Monica.

I spent most of the day in the “bad” section of the breast center, surrounded by worried and terrified women.

I had a more thorough mammogram than my initial one.

Then I had an ultrasound with much frowning and concern.

Then the technician called a doctor into the ultrasound.

More frowning.

A biopsy was scheduled for next Tuesday morning.

I’ll have the results by Friday of next week.

So – yay, I have this cloud of “try not to worry” hanging over me for the next week.

My brain absolutely knows, the odds are in my favor for a benign, non-cancerous, biopsy.

My heart, however, knows too many friends who have been diagnosed with breast cancer.

I’m not panicked, or freaking out –

But I also know nobody’s bullet proof.

Life, sometimes, sucks.

As a result of my “lost” day yesterday,

I got absolutely none of the errands on my “San Francisco To-Do List” done.

Instead,

I’m tossing some old sweatshirts and stuff in a suitcase and leaving this morning.

I did get my lenses all packed, because I DO have priorities.

(Having my camera gear with me is way more important than having a matching wardrobe.)

I think a busy, fun, four days in San Francisco might be just what I need to distract me.

I return to Orange County late on Monday night.

I’ll try to (at least) get a few photos published in my absence.

13 Responses to “The Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day”

  1. Donna

    Sorry it was such a bad day! I’m going through that just now too in other ways. Enjoy your weekend in San Fran and well all look forward to the wonderful pictures you’ll post! Good luck!

  2. Linda M

    Have a wonderful weekend (with those worries stuffed away until next week).

    Positive thoughts coming from Central Pennsylvania!!

  3. Diane Cayton-Hakey

    Car stalled? What’s that all about???? Go enjoy yourself and think about the test results after your week-end. I’ll bet San Fran is just waiting for you to arrive. :-)) AND, I for one am waiting for your photos next week.

  4. Jenny in MN now in AZ

    You explain the emotions and experience so well. Be comforted that you have a medical facility that is willing to get you in right away for something they are questioning.

    Try to push the worry away and try to enjoy your San Fran time to the fullest.

    Hugs!

  5. karen

    I hope you have a wonderful weekend in SanFran. Many of these biopsy things turn out to be nothing, so it might absolutely be that. My mother’s cancer was caught early, as would be the case with yours because you are so diligent if it came to that, and her treatment wasn’t terrible and prognosis is good.

    Looking forward to sanfran pics… Alcatraz is an awesome place for gritty, artsy photos if you’re so inclined.

  6. Denise

    Have a terrific weekend and just stay in the moment with your fun and photography. I was thinking about you yesterday. Our Central Coast hills are green, the wildflowers are starting to come out, and it is gorgeous. I filled my card in Cambria. I think the area is calling your name:-)
    Sending good thoughts….

  7. Missy

    As my sister would say “No future tripping”. You will have answers next week and right now it’s out of your control. Get caught up in the beauty of San Francisco and take some awesome photos. We are counting on you!

  8. Jan's Sushi Bar

    Oh, jeez, girl. I SO hope you have a good time in San Fran – try no to worry too much over this, okay?

    Love you.

  9. Jane

    San Fran sounds like just the ticket for you right now. Have a blast with Nike being your “assistant.” Next week will take care of itself.

  10. Pam

    I’m thinking of you Suzanne. Sorry for your sucky day!

    Take care,
    Pam

  11. grace

    My daughter has been followig your blog for a long time (she loves your photography). Then you started writing about your mamogram call-back, and the feelings it projected. She immediately forwarded it to me because I was going through exactly the same experiences. I am happy to say I got my biopsy report last week and all is well. What a relief. I was so positive I was going to receive bad news. I am so hoping the same for you & will also be praying for you. Good luck!

    • Twenty Four At Heart

      Thank you. I’m expecting that all is well, but it still causes a lot of anxiety to go through the whole process. I’ll be glad when I get my results and I can move on! I’m glad to hear everything turned out on the positive side for you!

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