Out of Balance

I’m doing a lot of things poorly lately.

I’m reading emails, flagging them to respond to “later when I have a minute,” and then never having that minute.

I have over 400 flagged emails right now.

Many of them have been flagged for a long, long, time …!

I get (easily) over 500 emails a day –

Not because I’m an Important Person,

But because this is my life.

I’ve got a long list of phone calls that need returning – and the list grows longer each day.

I’m (very) ashamed to say some of my good friends are on that list.

My house?  Well, it’s extremely neglected.  Let’s leave it at that.

My backlog of photos to be edited is astounding.

(And I don’t mean BAD photos … I’m not finding the time to edit the really good ones.)

I’m not getting much sleep,

And I don’t feel like I’m getting any time to recharge mentally or emotionally.

My life is really out of balance right now.

I’m living in a whirlwind.

I’d say things are falling through the cracks, but it’s more like things are falling through gaping canyons.

I need to sit down and develop a strategy.

If only there was time to do that, right??

During the worst post-accident years,

I ached to be able to hold a camera again.

There are no words to describe how much I longed to take photos.

I’d see other people with cameras and it nearly killed me.

“I used to take photos,” I’d say.

“Before the accident, I was pretty good with a camera.”

It wasn’t that long ago.

My life in the last year or two?

Well, it’s amazing – all the stuff that has happened.

And, everything has happened so fast.

And IS happening so fast.

But when life changes quickly,

Whether it be in a positive or negative way …

It’s hard to get a grip on The New Reality and How To Handle It.

Here are some things I do know:

1.  If I don’t take care of my arm/shoulder/accident involved parts – my world will stop.  I *have to* work with my post accident limitations.  Pain can (and often does) kick me in the ass at its whim.  If I want to function, taking care of my “arm”  HAS to be my top priority.  It’s non-negotiable.  (A-r-m is shorthand and really means the upper right quadrant of my body.  My body is a mess.)

2.  I always want to do more than I can do.

3.  I have a very hard time asking for help.  I call it my “independent nature.”  (Others might call it being a stubborn bitch?)

4.  Life can (and often does) change in a millisecond.

5.  Humor is life’s best survival tool.

6.  There is beauty everywhere.  Yes, there really is … just LOOK!

3 Responses to “Out of Balance”

  1. Amy

    Now that you’re making money off your photography, why not consider getting a housekeeper to help you keep up at home? Possibly one who will even start meals for you? Life is a trade off, might as well spend it doing things you love!

  2. Erica

    I have been curious about how you keep up, considering the number of photograhs you take and the other things you have to do. As long as you file and document the older pictures well, you can go back through them years from now. Keep updating your backup methods so you don’t lose anything.


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