Time For Reflecting

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I took the above photo last weekend.

It’s, currently, one of my “all time” favorites.

And yes, I do change favorite photos on a whim.

But …?

I love the clouds reflecting on the wet sand.

It was such a gorgeous sight to experience in person.

I hope I caught a little of the magic with my lens.

I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting of my own lately.

This journey I’ve been on since the car accident is surreal.

There’s been heartwrenching BAD,

And impossible to believe GOOD.

A lot of it has been played out publicly on these pages.

My emotions have often been “out there” for everyone to see via my writing and my photography.

I knew nothing about blogging when I first wrote here.

I never thought (for even a moment) anyone would read my words or ever know who I “really” am.

My naivete is laughable now.

When I began blogging, my arm was too damaged to hold a camera and there were no decent photos (of my own) to share.

Oh, how my heart ached from missing photography.

Surprise, surprise …

People have read (and continue to read) what I write.

Shocking as it is, I can now hold a camera (for limited amounts of time and in an “incorrect” way) to take photos.

I share a lot of my emotions through my lens.

The more public my life has become, the more private I’ve felt my words need to be.

It’s very disconcerting to walk through a department store and have a sales person say,

“You’re that photographer lady, aren’t you?”

A day later, someone I’ve never met felt strongly enough to write an email just to tell me my art is crap.

And that same day, one of my long-time photography idols sent me a (thrilling!) note from the other side of the world to praise my work.

It’s also repeatedly clear the majority of my friends and family “don’t get it.”

(Take your pick – the blogging and/or the photography.)

It can be discombobulating.

(By the way, discombobulating is one of the greatest words ever invented.)

There are some things I do know, though.

I have to be true to who I am, regardless of who approves or disapproves.

Sure, I “feel” approval and/or disapproval.

I think everyone does.

It can be very deflating to get negativity thrown at you.

It doesn’t change who I am though.

I know, with more certainty than I’ve ever known,

I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing with my life.

It’s almost as if my soul is flowing right through my lens.

I can’t stop.

I don’t want to stop.

Whether people like it, or not.

8 Responses to “Time For Reflecting”

  1. Denise

    I used the word “discombobulated” when I was riding my horse yesterday. Once I regrouped, I had an awesome ride. And you are on an awesome ride with your photography. Now that you are recognized and followed by so many online, you will forevermore have people who don’t appreciate your art and feel the need to say something. Who knows why? It really doesn’t matter. It’s your life and your soul.

    It also seems that you’ve raised three pretty great kids who have grown into wonderful young adults. And that’s huge!

    p.s. My new favorite is the one you posted on FB yesterday. I love blues and golds in sunsets.


    • Suzanne

      Thank you Denise!
      I like the one I posted on FB also.
      It was taken in one of my new “spots.”
      I like hanging out on the bluff just waiting to see what the light show will look like.

  2. Jenny in MN now in AZ

    You are such a strong and inspirational person. Even though you may not really mean to be..(?)

    Your photos are fantastic. Some people obviously have NO taste and it is their loss.

    Chronic pain and passion for something – yep, you pretty much have it covered with things others don’t truly understand. 😉

    Hugs! Hope the pain lessens soon!

    • Suzanne

      Thank you for being one of my readers who I always know DOES understand! : )
      I’m not always strong, and I certainly never set out to inspire anyone.
      If my story helps anyone with their own journey, however, I’m glad I’ve shared.

  3. Erica

    The way a picture looks online depends on the hardware. Suggest to anyone critical that they view your images on a high def screen or even a newer computer.

    Also, never change what you photograph based on what someone else says. If you do, it won’t be fun through the pain anymore. (That means you can happily ignore me as I write that I want more animals/creatures, on land and in water! :-D)

    • Suzanne

      Different people have different tastes … and that’s fine.
      I see a lot of art I don’t care for, but I just move on.
      I don’t see anything being gained by writing a letter to the artist if I don’t like their creative expression.

      You like creatures?
      I do too.
      Maybe I will share more of those photos in the future.


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