Saying Goodbye to Mocha

I woke up at 2:20 a.m. on Wednesday morning to a very sick dog.

I was home alone.

I couldn’t lift her by myself.

I knew she was dying, but I desperately wanted to ease her pain.

Watching an animal suffer is one of the worst things imaginable.

When you love that animal as part of your family it’s pure torture.

Our vet has a referral, after hours, line to an emergency vet.

I called the emergency vet and explained I was alone and unable to lift my 85 pound dog to bring her to them.

(I don’t think I would have been able to lift her even if I had two good arms.)

They told me about a local company called Animal Ambulance.

I called them.

By 3:45 a.m. a vet was at my house.

By 4:45 Mocha had died peacefully, at home with me.

My heart is, of course, broken.

Dogs are happiness, joy, and love.

It’s devastating to say good-bye to them.

I am, however, truly grateful to the vet at Animal Ambulance.

He was compassionate and kind.

(I had no idea a company like Animal Ambulance existed, but I’m so glad they do.)

Ironically, it was exactly one year ago today when I posted to tell you Doc had died.

I’d like to think he’s now been reunited with his best friend.

Dear, sweet, Mocha – you will be greatly missed.

26 Responses to “Saying Goodbye to Mocha”

  1. Kristen

    So sorry for your loss. It is one of the worst pains in life. Lots of hugs to you and the whole family.

    • Suzanne

      Thank you.
      Yes, losing a pet is incredibly emotional.

  2. julieanne

    Oh Suzanne, I’m on the train home from work & my heart dropped as soon as I read the subject line! I’m so sorry for your loss and thinking of you all, especially your out-of-town family 🙁 hugs to you all from your friend in Australia

    • Suzanne

      Thank you.
      The second hardest thing was making the phone calls to tell my kids …

  3. Pam

    I’m so, so sorry. It’s such a hard thing, to say goodbye to a friend who’s loved you unconditionally for so long. You were lucky to have each other, and she’ll always be with you.
    RIP Fudge, who left me 18 months ago and who I remember every day.

    • Suzanne

      Thank you.
      Yes, pets do love us unconditionally.
      It’s so hard to say goodbye.

  4. Jenny in MN now in AZ

    So sorry for your loss. Sending you and your family a healing hug.

    • Suzanne

      Thank you so much – we need it!

  5. Margie

    I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I lost my Bear (a 13yr old black lab) last March and still miss him. It is amazing how dogs can love us so fully and unconditionally. I am going to be giving Bella (my 8yr old black lab) some extra hugs and love today.

    • Suzanne

      Thank you.
      And, please give Bella a hug from me too.

  6. Missy Stalcup

    I would love to think Doc and Mocha have been reunited and are playing like puppies. You low my heart breaks a little when I hear news like this. Getting teary.

    • Suzanne

      I would love to think that too, Missy.

  7. Jan's Sushai Bar

    Oh, Suzanne, I’m so sorry. Hugs to you – I know how hard this must be on you, after all that’s happened lately.

    • Suzanne

      It has been a tough 12-15 months ….

  8. Mj

    So sorry about the loss of your sweet dog. They are like our children to us and loved just the same. I lost my boxer baby Zoe several years ago and I still miss her. I think you should take that visit to your friends with the puppies.

    • Suzanne

      Thank you.
      Yes, they become a part of our families.
      I probably could benefit by visiting my friends puppy.

  9. Judi

    I cried yesterday when I saw the news on Facebook and am crying again this morning. My heart breaks for you. I’m sure Doc and Mocha are together again. I have to believe we will all be reunited with our furry kids again someday, because I can’t fathom eternity without my kitties. Take comfort in the good life you provided her, and that she knew she was loved every minute.

    • Suzanne

      Thank you.
      Yes, it is heart breaking – it really is.
      : (

  10. Julie in Michigan

    Oh so sorry to hear this. It’s hard to lose a pet because they become a family member and give so much unconditional love. Rest in peace sweet Mocha.

  11. tonya cinnamon

    lots of hugs its never easy to lose your fur baby 🙁

    • Suzanne

      Thank you.
      It is a very difficult good-bye.
      : (

  12. gina

    Suzanne, you are in my thoughts. Pets are family members; their deaths bring raw grief just as a human passing does. And when your children have had the pet in their lives, many layers are added to the grieving process.

    Memories trigger many emotions and bring smiles and tears. May thoughts of Doc and Mocha romping together forever bring comfort to you.

  13. Cathy B

    I’m so sorry to hear this, Suzanne. Hugs and sympathy from Toronto.


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