Disillusioned

I’ve had a rough couple weeks.

My sister’s accident.

The puppy heartbreak.

A rattlesnake hissing at me in my own garage.

Terrible, painful, girl-parts tests.

(The test was AWFUL!)

I’m kind of down in the dumps.

More than the disappointment of having “my” future service-puppy taken away,

Is just a general sense of disillusionment with humanity.

I’ve been busy, but I’ve also been a hermit.

I’m still in a state of shock over how cruel the puppy breeder is/was.

I don’t like people very much right now.

People can be so awful to other people.

And, they often are.

I know I’ll get over it and life will return to “normal.”

But, right now I’ve kind of given up on humanity in general.

Maybe I just need to meet ONE person who isn’t totally focused on themselves and their own ego and selfishness.

Maybe.

8 Responses to “Disillusioned”

  1. KirstyB

    You’ve had a crappy week! I hope next week is better! <3 It's easy to pull away when things are rough….just know that there ARE good people out there who are not completely self obsessed or lacking moral decency! HUGS!

    • Suzanne

      Thank you.
      Logically, I know that.
      It’s just hard to BELIEVE it right now.

  2. Denise

    Life seems to go that way, with things piling on one after another, until it turns and gets better again. I’ve had a few of those things this past month and started moving past it this week. I know that puppy meant a lot to you, but you will find your puppy and once you have it home with you, life will be filled with joy again. It just takes a little more time and a leap of faith.

    • Suzanne

      Yes, life does seem to go like that.
      Lots of bad things at once, and then turning a corner to better things.

      More than the puppy, it’s the experience of seeing a human (I trusted) be so terrible. That is the disillusionment part of it.

      Puppys that are fit to be service dogs are hard to find. Especially since my service needs are very unique. A dog trained for a blind person, or someone in a wheelchair, won’t work for me.

      It took me six months to find a puppy that fit the bill. Now, I have to start the entire process over. I would be surprised if it takes less than 6 mo to a year to find a match.

  3. julieanne

    Thinking of you! You should keep looking into your Australia trip for something to look forward to, we will cheer you up 🙂 hope the test results come back clear! xx

    • Suzanne

      Thank you.
      Yes, I actually thought about that trtip too.
      Maybe I should get it planned.

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