Starting Over

I feel like it’s time to start over in just about every aspect of my life.

We all have to re-balance our lives now and again, but my entire life needs a reset.

I’ve been thinking about this a lot since I’m now looking towards October 31st with stars in my eyes.

(That’s the day I get my next ultrasound on my arm and, hopefully, a green light to begin doing MORE.)

I’m trying to be realistic, but I feel like I’ve begun making new year resolutions in mid-September.

My life always gets super busy during the last few months of the year.

I’m trying to be realistic about THAT too.

But, still ….

I feel like I’m standing in the middle of a war zone trying to decide what piece of demolished ruins to pick up off the ground first.

When every single area of your life needs fixing – where to start first?

It’s overwhelming.

There are many things in ruins I have no control of.

I can’t go back to working full time for awhile still.  (I have to wait for more healing to take place.)

I can’t find my husband a job ….

Hopefully, something will happen for him sooner vs. later –

He’s close to having something, I think.

I can’t make cancer go away and leave our family alone forever.

But, I’ve decided to begin trying for one positive step forward per day.

It might be a teeny, tiny, baby step –

Or, on some days (if I’m lucky?)  it might be a gigantic step.

Each day, I’m going to try to move some aspect of my life towards where it should be,

Instead of where it has been these last twelve months or so.

I’m going to make a note every single day of at least one thing that improved and/or moved closer to normalcy.

When lots of major life things go wrong all at the same time,

It can be hard to see the small improvements as they begin to come.

I’m going to focus really hard on seeing, and embracing, them.

I’m also going to begin forcing time to take better care of myself.

The last twelve months have completely kicked my ass.

I need to make time to take care of myself instead of neglecting my own health and happiness.

It’s easier to say all of this, of course, than to do it.

But, one small step each day  is what I’ll be focused on for the remainder of 2016.

If you feel like your life needs a reset, feel free to join me.

One small step forward each day.

If I can do it, you can do it???

Why wait?

7 Responses to “Starting Over”

  1. Michelle

    One small step each day!

    I also keep a gratitude journal, where I write at least one positive thing in it. That may be something big (job for kids), or something small, the flowers on the ground as I walk. Something that brings joy or gratitude.

    • Suzanne

      Yes – one step a day.
      I recently started a gratitude journal also.
      I think it’s a very good habit to get into.
      It’s great to hear you have one too!


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